thestarsfall
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I can't seem to lose weight, honestly. Even when I try.
I'll break it down to eating and exercising because I have issues and such with both sides.
Exercising: I don't mind working out. I hate getting sweaty, but I totally have no problems walking places when it might take way more time than ideal. I walk to work which is either 5 mins away or 30 mins depending where I work. If it's the 5 mins away one I like to go on a walk around the neighbourhood after that work is done (I'm a massage therapist so I don't work regular hours, only when I have clients). So a rough estimate is that I walk at least 30 mins at least 3x a week...which should be enough to maintain weight right?
Other than that I occasionally will go for a few weeks of doing either extra walks or workout videos or something else...so like November/December I worked out 5x a week for at least 30 mins (usually more like an hour) each time. DIDN'T LOSE A POUND. And I didn't change my eating habits, which I don't think are too horrible either.
My other issue is that I have a lot of pain in my legs. I have shin splints, plantar fasciitis, and I think a heel spur in my right foot. I have restless legs syndrome as well so if I up my activity too much I get symptoms that night. I also have some weirdo hip problems that my one professor suspected might be a congenital hip deformity. So while I can do some activities and I often push through the pain for them, other activities are just too painful for me to do (running...for instance. I want to want to run though...lol).
Eating: I have a history of disordered eating, and I htink I have something akin to night eating disorder. I can have a reasonable breakfast of like 300-400 Calories and then I honestly am not hungry until like 4pm or sometimes even like 6pm. Then I'll have a semi-reasonable dinner (homemade) and after that all I want to do is snack. It helps that I don't actually have that many snack foods in my house usually, but I just get incredibly peckish. I have tried to just drink herbal tea or green tea or water but given the oppourtunity I would probably binge. Not cool.
Now with this history of disordered eating comes weirdo mental issues when it comes to eating. If I keep a food diary, for instance, which is recommended when trying to lose weight. I start to waaaaay undereat and feel guilty about anything I do eat. I'll have like a piece of toast for breakfast or just a banana and then lunch will be some eggs and carrot sticks and I'll start to think it's too much. If I write things down I start to think I ate too much that day if it's more than like...one meal worth. Not healthy.
The only times in my life that I have actually lost any significant weight were:
-after having my wisdom teeth out and only eating milkshakes for a week and being on pain medication that took away appetites.
-after having jaw surgery and having my jaw wired shut for a week and then living off of milkshakes and such
-living at a ranch for 2 weeks where we did heavy physical labour all day and there was no food available except for at meal times
-having an eating disorder in first year university where I would have orange juice for breakfast, work out for 90 minutes during the day and then only eat dinner
Otherwise I have been steadily gaining weight since birth pretty much. And up until recently it hasn't really affected my health at all. I had mildly high triglycerides a few years ago but my new doctor has said nothing about my bloodwork now. And I have slightly higher than normal systolic blood pressure...but my diastolic is low so no one really worries about it. (it's like 128/70 usually) Plus high blood pressure runs in my family so it's not like that would be a direct correlation with my weight necessarily.
I wear an 18/20 Canadian sizing....would LOVE to get back down even to a 16.
I don't really know why I made this thread other than to rant. I feel like most people I know are just like "durr, just work out and eat proper and you'll be fine" but I don't feel like I eat horribly most times, and I am moderately active, so I don't think I should be as big as I am....I know I could always eat better and be more active too...but that hasn't ever worked for me to lose weight.
I'll break it down to eating and exercising because I have issues and such with both sides.
Exercising: I don't mind working out. I hate getting sweaty, but I totally have no problems walking places when it might take way more time than ideal. I walk to work which is either 5 mins away or 30 mins depending where I work. If it's the 5 mins away one I like to go on a walk around the neighbourhood after that work is done (I'm a massage therapist so I don't work regular hours, only when I have clients). So a rough estimate is that I walk at least 30 mins at least 3x a week...which should be enough to maintain weight right?
Other than that I occasionally will go for a few weeks of doing either extra walks or workout videos or something else...so like November/December I worked out 5x a week for at least 30 mins (usually more like an hour) each time. DIDN'T LOSE A POUND. And I didn't change my eating habits, which I don't think are too horrible either.
My other issue is that I have a lot of pain in my legs. I have shin splints, plantar fasciitis, and I think a heel spur in my right foot. I have restless legs syndrome as well so if I up my activity too much I get symptoms that night. I also have some weirdo hip problems that my one professor suspected might be a congenital hip deformity. So while I can do some activities and I often push through the pain for them, other activities are just too painful for me to do (running...for instance. I want to want to run though...lol).
Eating: I have a history of disordered eating, and I htink I have something akin to night eating disorder. I can have a reasonable breakfast of like 300-400 Calories and then I honestly am not hungry until like 4pm or sometimes even like 6pm. Then I'll have a semi-reasonable dinner (homemade) and after that all I want to do is snack. It helps that I don't actually have that many snack foods in my house usually, but I just get incredibly peckish. I have tried to just drink herbal tea or green tea or water but given the oppourtunity I would probably binge. Not cool.
Now with this history of disordered eating comes weirdo mental issues when it comes to eating. If I keep a food diary, for instance, which is recommended when trying to lose weight. I start to waaaaay undereat and feel guilty about anything I do eat. I'll have like a piece of toast for breakfast or just a banana and then lunch will be some eggs and carrot sticks and I'll start to think it's too much. If I write things down I start to think I ate too much that day if it's more than like...one meal worth. Not healthy.
The only times in my life that I have actually lost any significant weight were:
-after having my wisdom teeth out and only eating milkshakes for a week and being on pain medication that took away appetites.
-after having jaw surgery and having my jaw wired shut for a week and then living off of milkshakes and such
-living at a ranch for 2 weeks where we did heavy physical labour all day and there was no food available except for at meal times
-having an eating disorder in first year university where I would have orange juice for breakfast, work out for 90 minutes during the day and then only eat dinner
Otherwise I have been steadily gaining weight since birth pretty much. And up until recently it hasn't really affected my health at all. I had mildly high triglycerides a few years ago but my new doctor has said nothing about my bloodwork now. And I have slightly higher than normal systolic blood pressure...but my diastolic is low so no one really worries about it. (it's like 128/70 usually) Plus high blood pressure runs in my family so it's not like that would be a direct correlation with my weight necessarily.
I wear an 18/20 Canadian sizing....would LOVE to get back down even to a 16.
I don't really know why I made this thread other than to rant. I feel like most people I know are just like "durr, just work out and eat proper and you'll be fine" but I don't feel like I eat horribly most times, and I am moderately active, so I don't think I should be as big as I am....I know I could always eat better and be more active too...but that hasn't ever worked for me to lose weight.