Terri1980
Mommy To An Angel
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I woke up this morning to get ready for work and lo and behold, AF had arrived. @#$@%%!!!! I am feeling so devastated and angry today. I had hoped and prayed so hard that we would be pregnant soon after the miscarriage. Now it's been over 3 months and it just feels like the pain is never going to end. I started crying in the bathroom this morning because it felt like I was miscarrying all over again. I called in sick to work today....
I am a good person... a patient, kind, caring, funny, active and responsible person... I would be a GREAT mother. I am MEANT to be a MOM. I can't stand seeing other women having children who, in my opinion, don't deserve them! Women who are irresponsible and want babies for their own selfish reasons. Women who are trying to have babies just to prove something. Women who are in unstable relationships and are trying to have a baby to hold on to their man. Women who drink, use drugs, or otherwise treat their bodies horribly while pregnant. Women who abuse their kids or treat them like they are some kind of burden. It all just makes me want to scream!!!
I was completely responsible in my decision to have a baby... I've wanted a baby since I was 18 years old, but I waited until I was married to a great guy who treats me like a queen, finished college, had a stable career, owned a home, etc. so that I had a solid base I could offer my children. I'm 30 years old.. started trying when I was 29. I waited patiently to try conceiving until I KNEW I could properly provide for a child. And yet I see all these young girls having children left and right because of their own selfish reasons. It's so fricken ridiculous and completely unfair!!
NEWSFLASH GIRLS: babies need more than just LOVE. Babies need structure, they need security, they need food and diapers and medicines and trips to the hospital and clothes, they need a positive male role model, they need a mother free of drugs and alcohol who can be focused and attentive to their needs, they need consistency and boundaries, they need 24/7 care, they need patience and maturity, they need parents who don't fight all the time and can stay calm in times of crisis..... "LOVE" is the easy part ASSHOLES! And if you think that having a baby means that you'll have something that loves you unconditionally forever, think again! It's YOUR job to love them, and they will take and take and take from you with few signs of appreciation. Being a parent is about not expecting anything in return or getting the love back, it is a THANKLESS JOB... but one I can't wait to have.
Today, I'm allowing myself to be angry. If anyone is still reading this, thank you for letting me vent...
I am a good person... a patient, kind, caring, funny, active and responsible person... I would be a GREAT mother. I am MEANT to be a MOM. I can't stand seeing other women having children who, in my opinion, don't deserve them! Women who are irresponsible and want babies for their own selfish reasons. Women who are trying to have babies just to prove something. Women who are in unstable relationships and are trying to have a baby to hold on to their man. Women who drink, use drugs, or otherwise treat their bodies horribly while pregnant. Women who abuse their kids or treat them like they are some kind of burden. It all just makes me want to scream!!!
I was completely responsible in my decision to have a baby... I've wanted a baby since I was 18 years old, but I waited until I was married to a great guy who treats me like a queen, finished college, had a stable career, owned a home, etc. so that I had a solid base I could offer my children. I'm 30 years old.. started trying when I was 29. I waited patiently to try conceiving until I KNEW I could properly provide for a child. And yet I see all these young girls having children left and right because of their own selfish reasons. It's so fricken ridiculous and completely unfair!!
NEWSFLASH GIRLS: babies need more than just LOVE. Babies need structure, they need security, they need food and diapers and medicines and trips to the hospital and clothes, they need a positive male role model, they need a mother free of drugs and alcohol who can be focused and attentive to their needs, they need consistency and boundaries, they need 24/7 care, they need patience and maturity, they need parents who don't fight all the time and can stay calm in times of crisis..... "LOVE" is the easy part ASSHOLES! And if you think that having a baby means that you'll have something that loves you unconditionally forever, think again! It's YOUR job to love them, and they will take and take and take from you with few signs of appreciation. Being a parent is about not expecting anything in return or getting the love back, it is a THANKLESS JOB... but one I can't wait to have.
Today, I'm allowing myself to be angry. If anyone is still reading this, thank you for letting me vent...