Really scared and running out of time

[reallyscared]

Hi there. This is my very first post. But I felt like we are two peas in a pod. I too am in my first trimester about 9 weeks. I'm In a very rocky relationship and have been in it off and on for nine years. I am really frightened as well and the anxiety is off the charts. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I've been talking to a therapist my parents my boyfriend but nothing seems to help relieve the anxiety. I think once I make a set decision I'll feel a bit better but I just don't know what to do. I know I'll be a good mom I have the maternal instinct but am I ready for my entire life to change? The responsibility seems like too much. But at the same time I feel like that's just taking the easy way out. Help!