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[armymama2012]

The certified letter SMH....more paperwork I have to fill out...and not looking so good for us right now...its a long drawn out story...but it'll be okay. If this doesn't work IVF it is we could have it saved up in no time

Is it about the girls? I will pray for you and them.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

We aren't getting the girls.... I'm so depressed right now its not even funny....We can't get our certification until March 2013 because of something that happened and I got in some trouble a long while back....it wasn't even my fault..it was all caused from post partum depression...even have a letter from the doc...its so stupid....but its life. So I think IVF is it just going to save the money for it...I doubt I'll be on much anymore ladies I'm really bummed and depressed past the point of where I want to be right now. I have so much going on right now....but I'll come pop in every once in a while...so sorry I feel like such a let down and everything.

 

[armymama2012]

We aren't getting the girls.... I'm so depressed right now its not even funny....We can't get our certification until March 2013 because of something that happened and I got in some trouble a long while back....it wasn't even my fault..it was all caused from post partum depression...even have a letter from the doc...its so stupid....but its life. So I think IVF is it just going to save the money for it...I doubt I'll be on much anymore ladies I'm really bummed and depressed past the point of where I want to be right now. I have so much going on right now....but I'll come pop in every once in a while...so sorry I feel like such a let down and everything.

I'm sorry. I didnt mean to make you feel worse. I will keep praying for you! Maybe you'll end up preggers in the next few months without trying! I will miss you Andi.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I won't leave I'll be here...just really really upset about everything this way .....I really really can't afford the IVF right now so I guess its just a waiting game....maybe it will happen, and if not I'll somehow survive.....maybe its best right now I'm under so much stress. What sucks is I just spent over $4,000 on those girls who now we aren't able to get I should get a confirmation call sometime within the next two days about this whole thing with the girls....to let me know I really can't get them right now....it'll be okay though....Maybe God has another plan...and I have to just accept it!

 

[armymama2012]

I won't leave I'll be here...just really really upset about everything this way .....I really really can't afford the IVF right now so I guess its just a waiting game....maybe it will happen, and if not I'll somehow survive.....maybe its best right now I'm under so much stress. What sucks is I just spent over $4,000 on those girls who now we aren't able to get I should get a confirmation call sometime within the next two days about this whole thing with the girls....to let me know I really can't get them right now....it'll be okay though....Maybe God has another plan...and I have to just accept it!

Awwww....I just wanna hug you. You still going to check in tomorrow to see my test results? I'll check in on you occasionally if you aren't going to be posting and just reading.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I'll be of course checking in to see your tests and see how your doing I wont leave just really frustrated at the lemons life is handing me...and you didn't hurt me or make anything worse by asking sweetie I needed to vent it out anyways just so overwhelmed with all these emotions....I have all their stuff and I suppose I'll have to give it back to their Aunt so she can give it to the girls real parents in the long run

Anyways.....I'm gonna just think to myself that God has something more awesome in store for us...my mom left my house crying earlier because her heart was set on us getting them since no one told me about the "exception" I would have since our case is special....just stressed me out a LOT....but I'm okay now just praying God answers my prayers its been 4 long years of TTC nearly and not getting the girls just broke my heart.....what else is gonna go wrong seems like the past few months nothing has been going right The truck breaking, me being sick, me developing the huge cyst I had....just too many things...now not getting the girls maybe its for the best since some days I would have questions in my mind about things but even my mom told me that when she adopted me she had the SAME exact thoughts of what if I can't do this and what if I can't handle a little girl etc... sooo I guess it was normal to want them but then to be scared of getting them at the same time.. I duno but I'm heartbroken and have been pretty sickly all day because of it all

 

[armymama2012]

I'll be of course checking in to see your tests and see how your doing I wont leave just really frustrated at the lemons life is handing me...and you didn't hurt me or make anything worse by asking sweetie I needed to vent it out anyways just so overwhelmed with all these emotions....I have all their stuff and I suppose I'll have to give it back to their Aunt so she can give it to the girls real parents in the long run

Anyways.....I'm gonna just think to myself that God has something more awesome in store for us...my mom left my house crying earlier because her heart was set on us getting them since no one told me about the "exception" I would have since our case is special....just stressed me out a LOT....but I'm okay now just praying God answers my prayers its been 4 long years of TTC nearly and not getting the girls just broke my heart.....what else is gonna go wrong seems like the past few months nothing has been going right The truck breaking, me being sick, me developing the huge cyst I had....just too many things...now not getting the girls maybe its for the best since some days I would have questions in my mind about things but even my mom told me that when she adopted me she had the SAME exact thoughts of what if I can't do this and what if I can't handle a little girl etc... sooo I guess it was normal to want them but then to be scared of getting them at the same time.. I duno but I'm heartbroken and have been pretty sickly all day because of it all

I understand stress. We have been stressed the past 2 months because of being behind on bills and still wanting to do stuff with our daughter. And now we have 6 weeks to pack up our house while still cleaning every day and taking care of her plus two animals. It's enough to wear me out before the day is through.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

LOL I know how that is I have my two boys, then we have a dog, cat, fish, and a parrot...we have a MESS to clean every single day especially the kitchen...hopefully things will start to work themselves out sweetie hang in there! BIG HUGE your way!

 

[armymama2012]

LOL I know how that is I have my two boys, then we have a dog, cat, fish, and a parrot...we have a MESS to clean every single day especially the kitchen...hopefully things will start to work themselves out sweetie hang in there! BIG HUGE your way!

Thanks, been feeling Blah the last 4 days.

 

[armymama2012]

Praise the Lord! I just tested and there is a faint but visible pink line! Will post pictures soon.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I can't wait to see

 

[armymama2012]

I can't wait to see

Here is the best that my digital camera could do since it is still pretty faint:

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Thats defintely OMGOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!! its about time somebody got one again

CONGRATULATIONS HUN!! I'd go ahead and buy a FRER it'd have a nice line by tomorrow

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Did you test again tonight?!?!?!?! I can't wait to see tomorrows my goodness that is freaking awesome!!

I got a call today from the caseworker and it was GREAT news....adoption is back on...just waiting for the rest of our paperwork to get completed but we've already been accepted as adoptive parents that was the bestest news EVER!!!!!!!!!

 

[armymama2012]

Did you test again tonight?!?!?!?! I can't wait to see tomorrows my goodness that is freaking awesome!!

I got a call today from the caseworker and it was GREAT news....adoption is back on...just waiting for the rest of our paperwork to get completed but we've already been accepted as adoptive parents that was the bestest news EVER!!!!!!!!!

Yay! congrats. So happy they were allowed to look past that incident in the past and let you proceed. I will test when I wake up next.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Yes I can adopt just not get licensure for fostering....its a long drawn out story I would tell just still haven't gotten over what happened and I didn't really "do" anything ....like I said its just a long story...I didn't hurt my kids or anyone else....I snapped though...post partum depression can set anyone off and I didn't know I had it, if I would have I'd have gotten help! So would my mom and husband they would have helped me but we didn't know what was wrong with me I was definitely NOT who I am today....

DID YOU TEST !?!?!?!?

 

[armymama2012]

Yes I can adopt just not get licensure for fostering....its a long drawn out story I would tell just still haven't gotten over what happened and I didn't really "do" anything ....like I said its just a long story...I didn't hurt my kids or anyone else....I snapped though...post partum depression can set anyone off and I didn't know I had it, if I would have I'd have gotten help! So would my mom and husband they would have helped me but we didn't know what was wrong with me I was definitely NOT who I am today....

DID YOU TEST !?!?!?!?

I did test. Will post pics soon once my computer lets me access the pictures from the memory card, argh...

BTW, last night preggo symptoms hit me hard. One minute chills, the next hot flashes. Then I had knee pain and was nauseous when cooking the beef for spaghetti. Was also peeing every hour. Woke up this morning with hot flashes, peeing more than ever and really bad MS.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

So I'm assuming its a darker positive!

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have HORRIBLE cramps right now.....

 

[armymama2012]

So I'm assuming its a darker positive!

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have HORRIBLE cramps right now.....

I'm still a bit concerned because it didnt get darker than yesterday's until past the 5 minute reading time. Is that bad? I'm sorry your cramps are so bad. My MS hasn't let up in 3 hours even though I have eaten something.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

wheres my pic LOL I wanna see and no HCG increases doubles every day so its gonna be slow at first