Scared & Excited

[Fergie]

Hi,
I'm new to this group having just found out i'm 6w+6 pregnant.
I suffered with a horrific pregnancy 5 years ago and sadly lost my daughter an hour after she was born at 26w.
To say i'm scared is an understatement and every little ache i'm questioning. I don't know what a "normal" pregnancy is, so i'm coming at this one like a first time mum. I also have the added problem of a chronic health issue due to the last pregnancy so i know i'll be well watched and looked after physically but it's mentally that it's getting to me. I'm constantly checking that i'm not bleeding again and to be honest the thought of 9 months of this stress and worry is not appealing !.

Anyhow enough of the bad stuff. I'm really pleased i've been given another chance to be a mum, i just hope this one is straight forward
Take care all

Fergie Xx

 

[Pippin]

Hope it goes well hon and welcome to the group. It's always hard with the worry no matter how many pregnancies you have and I knicker check every time I go to the bathroom so I understand. If they are monitoring you closely I hope you get a few extra scans to put your mind at ease. Just remember each pregnancy is different and I think it's a good idea to see it as your first. Best of luck hon and hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months. x

 

[hb1]

It is hard to seperate your pg this time from your losses - but you will get loads of support from the girls on here - they're all fab : )

Congratulations on your BFP - HH 8 mths!

hx

 

[secretbaby]

I can't tell you its easy - because its not. It is made ALOT easier (well is for me) to have friends on here that I can talk to, can post what I feel - and know that ladies in this section will know what I mean.

I have written a similar post to yours myself at the beginning of my pregnancy. I used to cross of every day off the calander at the end of the day with a sigh of relife... it was only when i got past the point of my loss that I realised one day I hadn't crossed a few days of the calander - before that I never would have missed a day!

Yes I still worry but it is slightly less than before. I just take it one day at a time (and it does make it seem a long time but its how I cope) but I am spurred on by the postive stories i have heard on here and on sands from people who have gone through the same stress of another pregnancy to have a lovely healthy baby and the happy ending.

I am wishing a happy ending for me, you and everyone else on here too xx

 

[cgweegee]

Aww congratulations and best wishes to you!

 

[Smudgelicious]

Congratulations !!

I've had 4 pregnancies since I lost my son. One ended in miscarriage but I have 2 daughters now and a son who's almost here (fingers crossed). I will not say it's easy, but it's worth it and excuse the cliche, but the only way out of this is through it. BnB is a wonderful place to come to for reassurance and support,

wishing you all the best

 

[Becca L]

Hello Fergie

I'm about a week behind you. I just got my this morning. Hopefully we can support each other through the pregnancy.

I had a mc at 9 weeks in 2008, then a straightforward pregnancy with my daughter who was born in 2009. In August of this year I had a mmc which was discovered at the 12 week scan, then an ERPC afterwards.

I'm really happy to be pregnant again but also scared scared scared. Having had both types of mc no amount of knicker checking is going to reassure me! I can see myself heading off to Future Babies for lots of extra scans...

It really sounds like you've been through the mill Fergie. I hope this time round it's all straight forward.

Becca XXX

 

[Fergie]

Thank you all ladies .

It is good to have the support of you all who have been there and are going through it too. Although my family, especially my mum, were there for me when i lost my wee one, i just feel that they don't understand just how stressed and worrying this is for me. And although my OH is so pleased he's gonna be a daddy, he's really worried about how this all is going to affect my health. I basically live on codeine because i have Idiopathic Chronic Pancreatitis and although i know i can still take them if i need to i'd rather not and he's worried the pain is going to be too much for me. I just don't want to put this wee buttercup at any sort of risk.

I was confirmed at my GP on Monday and had blood taken .. 3 tubes . If i wasn't anaemic beforehand i blooming well am now !!. I've been given an urgent appt to see both my OB Dr and my Gastroenterologist so hopefully between the two i'll get some peace of mind. My GP though was so good, he's very old school and just let me sit there and quiz him about everything. So i feel slightly better now .. still nervous and doing the knicker checks, but happier in myself.

Again thank you all, take care and have a great Christmas

Fergie Xx