Last time I was this scared about a private scan I'd booked, I was right to be.
A part of me is telling me it could all be okay and the other big part of me is telling me not to listen to that part, not to get my hopes up, because I was told by a doctor six days ago this would "likely" be a miscarriage. Eight hours until my scan and I feel like tonight I have to just keep my hands on my belly because it might easily be my last few hours of this pregnancy.
I hate that I can't feel any joy in early pregnancy. With my son I was nervous of miscarriage but all was fine. With my second I had a bad feeling and bad physical signs from the start and I lost it at 9 weeks, found out at 11. And now I have bad physical signs again and I'm just so scared. Last time I came back to bnb just once, because there were all these amazing ladies waiting to hear my news from my scan, to tell them I'd lost it and now I feel like that's what I'll be doing again tomorrow. Sorry I just needed to snivel a bit.
A part of me is telling me it could all be okay and the other big part of me is telling me not to listen to that part, not to get my hopes up, because I was told by a doctor six days ago this would "likely" be a miscarriage. Eight hours until my scan and I feel like tonight I have to just keep my hands on my belly because it might easily be my last few hours of this pregnancy.
I hate that I can't feel any joy in early pregnancy. With my son I was nervous of miscarriage but all was fine. With my second I had a bad feeling and bad physical signs from the start and I lost it at 9 weeks, found out at 11. And now I have bad physical signs again and I'm just so scared. Last time I came back to bnb just once, because there were all these amazing ladies waiting to hear my news from my scan, to tell them I'd lost it and now I feel like that's what I'll be doing again tomorrow. Sorry I just needed to snivel a bit.