Hello all.
I have been reading so many uplifting and supportive messages from here this past week, and although I am sick with worry... I don't feel alone.
I know that none of us can predict what and how things will turn out.. but knowing you are not alone is very helpful.
I have no one really to talk to. My loving husband is the optimistic and happy type, my mom is not at all someone I can get encouraging words from and my poor dad has no clue about these things, nor do my friends.
I got married May 5th to my loving husband, and we began trying right away... and on my 1 month wedding anniversary I found out I was pregnant! (5 days before my period.)
From the start I was sick as a dog, fainting etc so by 5 weeks pregnant I was in the hospital. My HCGs were so high they assumed twins! Ultrasound didn't show much.
7 weeks pregnant... back again.. (fainting and extreme nausea) And again the doc pointed out very high hcgs. He actually told me I was off on my dates and I was closer to 15 weeks pregnant if it wasn't twins (impossible as we were not trying and I had my period on my wedding) Went for an ultrasound.. there was one baby.. with a heart beat and I was dated at 7 weeks 3 days. it was the happiest day of our lives. The next doc as well as my doc said they were high but still normal.. (in the 96th percentile )
Fast forward to our 12 week scan... the NT is measured at 2.4mm. I did the blood work, but get no results till next Monday as the obgyn is away. The receptionist who is very nice said yes the nt was high but normal.. she didn't have the blood back yet but yes there can be a risk with an nt of 2.4mm and high hcgs. The heart rate was also high normal (170)
I am sick with worry. I know I shouldn't read google but .... its there and I did.
The ultrasound tech also would only give me two pics... I cant see my baby's limbs.. one a head shot and a back shot. I keep looking at the pretty face... (def has daddy's nose!)
Anyone who has a down syndrome baby.. I don't want to offend anyone.. so please don't take it as I am saying your child is not perfect... but I want my baby healthy.. and I am sick with worry over this. It has been a long 3 years. I lost my brother to schizophrenia.. who I loved more than life itself.. and I have one brother who has special needs (He was born healthy but developed a blood clot on the side of his brain 3 months later) He went to a special school, has a gf (with severe mental disabilities) and although I love him more than anything.. I see the effects on a family.. I see how my parents worry what will happen to them when they pass away as he has severe behaviour issues and does not have the skills to be independent nor does he wish to learn (he is 42) I see some of his classmates who lost parents and are now in homes and not doing well.
I am 30 years old.. my husband is 20+ years older so I have to face facts here.. I will be a single parent when my kid is 40. I have no other support.. so it scares me beyond belief. No one understands, and no one an reassure me... I know. But reading everyone's kind words to each other.. really helps and I am very grateful for this board.
I wish everyone a happy and healthy pregnancy.
I have been reading so many uplifting and supportive messages from here this past week, and although I am sick with worry... I don't feel alone.
I know that none of us can predict what and how things will turn out.. but knowing you are not alone is very helpful.
I have no one really to talk to. My loving husband is the optimistic and happy type, my mom is not at all someone I can get encouraging words from and my poor dad has no clue about these things, nor do my friends.
I got married May 5th to my loving husband, and we began trying right away... and on my 1 month wedding anniversary I found out I was pregnant! (5 days before my period.)
From the start I was sick as a dog, fainting etc so by 5 weeks pregnant I was in the hospital. My HCGs were so high they assumed twins! Ultrasound didn't show much.
7 weeks pregnant... back again.. (fainting and extreme nausea) And again the doc pointed out very high hcgs. He actually told me I was off on my dates and I was closer to 15 weeks pregnant if it wasn't twins (impossible as we were not trying and I had my period on my wedding) Went for an ultrasound.. there was one baby.. with a heart beat and I was dated at 7 weeks 3 days. it was the happiest day of our lives. The next doc as well as my doc said they were high but still normal.. (in the 96th percentile )
Fast forward to our 12 week scan... the NT is measured at 2.4mm. I did the blood work, but get no results till next Monday as the obgyn is away. The receptionist who is very nice said yes the nt was high but normal.. she didn't have the blood back yet but yes there can be a risk with an nt of 2.4mm and high hcgs. The heart rate was also high normal (170)
I am sick with worry. I know I shouldn't read google but .... its there and I did.
The ultrasound tech also would only give me two pics... I cant see my baby's limbs.. one a head shot and a back shot. I keep looking at the pretty face... (def has daddy's nose!)
Anyone who has a down syndrome baby.. I don't want to offend anyone.. so please don't take it as I am saying your child is not perfect... but I want my baby healthy.. and I am sick with worry over this. It has been a long 3 years. I lost my brother to schizophrenia.. who I loved more than life itself.. and I have one brother who has special needs (He was born healthy but developed a blood clot on the side of his brain 3 months later) He went to a special school, has a gf (with severe mental disabilities) and although I love him more than anything.. I see the effects on a family.. I see how my parents worry what will happen to them when they pass away as he has severe behaviour issues and does not have the skills to be independent nor does he wish to learn (he is 42) I see some of his classmates who lost parents and are now in homes and not doing well.
I am 30 years old.. my husband is 20+ years older so I have to face facts here.. I will be a single parent when my kid is 40. I have no other support.. so it scares me beyond belief. No one understands, and no one an reassure me... I know. But reading everyone's kind words to each other.. really helps and I am very grateful for this board.
I wish everyone a happy and healthy pregnancy.