niknak242
Mourning my angels
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I lost my little boy on 4/10/11 at 15 weeks to what we have discovered was trisomy 18. We have been NTNP ever since. This month, I got what I thought was some faint lines, but 
showed up this morning, 4 days early nonetheless!
My BF and I had a discussion a few nights ago about WTT for a while now. I thought I still had a chance this month, and now its gone. I feel so sad and sort of distraught. I respect him and his need to wait, and his reasoning makes sense, but every month that passes that I should be growing my little boy inside me that I'm not pregnant feels like a huge smack in the face. And waiting feels like its the worst thing ever, even though logically I know its just a few months. Ironically, he said around September. I was due September 30. I'd love to be pregnant by my due date. But, blah. Right now I'm just so sad. I just want my baby back.
showed up this morning, 4 days early nonetheless! My BF and I had a discussion a few nights ago about WTT for a while now. I thought I still had a chance this month, and now its gone. I feel so sad and sort of distraught. I respect him and his need to wait, and his reasoning makes sense, but every month that passes that I should be growing my little boy inside me that I'm not pregnant feels like a huge smack in the face. And waiting feels like its the worst thing ever, even though logically I know its just a few months. Ironically, he said around September. I was due September 30. I'd love to be pregnant by my due date. But, blah. Right now I'm just so sad. I just want my baby back.
i am soo sorry for your loss 
