So sad....

[sugababies]

HI Guys

I posted on here back in October when I had a miscarriage but lost my password and what email address I used so have since re-registered.

I had a miscarriage in October and me and my bf were not trying for a baby at all and I didnt officially know I was pregnant (I had kind of guessed I was a little while before I officially found out) until I was being told I was having a miscarriage. Im still haunted by the scan picture of my baby (mc at 9 weeks) and then again when I had my confirmation scan that the baby had gone. I didnt necessary want a child but from the second I felt pregnant I loved it and since miscarrying I dont feel whole again. Its been 6 months and for a about a month I was very sad, then my life when back to normal although I will never forget about it, now I keep having moments where I think about it and the eerieness of my emptey womb in my second scan and it makes me soo sad I have been sobbing my heart out this evening.

Does this feeling go away eventually? Does anyone else feel like this this long after?

Sorry to waffle on, I dont know who else to talk to without people thinking I am going mad.

 

[mazza2003]

Hi there
I am sorry for your loss and the feelings you have been having. I am not sure what advice to give as I had what I thought was a MC that then turned out to be ectopic and I had a tube removed 4 weeks ago.

I thought I was ok until this week and the emptiness has hit me like a train. I truly dont think it will go until I have a baby. Maybe then it will still hurt. I dont know.

I dont think this is much help but I want you to know I share you pain and hurt and am thinking of you. Here to it feeling better in the fullness of time.
XXX

 

[sugababies]

Hi Mazza

Im so sorry to hear about the eptopic must be so hard for you and horrible to go through.

Thats exactly the feeling I get whenever I think about my miscarriage complete emptiness. And when I think about people like yourself who were actually trying for a baby I cant imagine how hard it must be, it must be so much worse. Thats what Im starting to feel scared about, I dont know how to make myself stop feeling like this and I will never forget the baby I lost ever and thats not what I want to do, I just want to stop the pain I feel when I think about it. And everyone seems to say you only get over it by having another baby but my circumstances are not right for that so although Im sure thats the only way I wont feel this emptiness its just not possible.

Thank you so much for replying. Sending my love and thoughts to you.
XXX

 

[rachjim98]

Hi there, I know where you are as I am still there too. Some days I think it is getting better and then something triggers me and I am a mess all over again.
I do not think this is something that will ever go away but in time (sometimes a lot of time) it does ease a bit. It has been a little over 4 months for me since (19+5 wks) MC. Not a day goes by my heart doesn't ache for my daughter.

I hope in time our hearts will heal a little and we can gain something from this (not sure what just yet). We have to believe that

So sorry for your loss and your pain
Thinking of you Anytime you want to talk we are here!

 

[Las78]

Hun, so sorry.

I lost my baby at 17w and gave birth to hin, I decided I wanted to see him but it took a long time to convince me and likewise I can still see his every feature as vivid as if it were yesterday so I can sort of understand how you feel.

I was doing fine until I hit 6 weeks and then broke down one night just longing for my baby. Have been ok again since but always think of him, I don't think that will ever go away but for me it's only been 8 weeks.

Perhaps some councelling will help you hun? It is such a traumatic thing to go through, you're in my thoughts and I hope that you're able to find some peace soon x

 

[Aidedhoney]

Sorry for your loss, mine happened in Aug 08 @ 16wks and been honest i think there will always be a part of me that feels empty and lost, as time passes it does get a bit easier.
I found that talking about it helps/helped.

Sorry
X

 

[emptyandsad]

Hi everyone, I gave birth to my still baby last thursday. I am lucky in that I already have 3 boys. I just feel so alone in my pain, my partner just doesn't seem sad at all. Has anyone else experienced this?

 

[Jkelmum]

Hi everyone, I gave birth to my still baby last thursday. I am lucky in that I already have 3 boys. I just feel so alone in my pain, my partner just doesn't seem sad at all. Has anyone else experienced this?

Sorry for the loss of your baby and welcome to BnB this is a great site that will give u loads of support ....maybe if u make a thread u will get more responces unfortantly there are quite a few angel mums that will know what u are going thru
hugs serina xxx

 

[Rumpskin]

So sorry for your loss sweety.

I still have good and bad days months on but it does get a easier xxxx