My waters broke 2 days ago at 35+2 and as my baby was breech, it was decided I would be monitored in hospital and given steroids then a c-section when labour began. Throughout my stay in hospital the staff consistently ignored everything I said about how my labour was progressing, ignored the fact I was bleeding heavily for 7 hours and ignored me when I told them I needed an immediate section because I knew I was close to full dilation. They insisted I wasn't even in labour right up until I delivered my daughters legs.
As a result I ended up having to give birth to my daughter vaginally. The registrar who was delivering her (and who had made all decisions regarding everything that had happened previously) chose to do nothing when my daughters head became stuck and her cord was wrapped tightly around her neck. She insisted I continue pushing even though I was no longer contracting. She refused to let me take my legs down from the stirrups and had 2 members of staff hold them there (I have bruises) even though I told her I couldn't push from my bottom like that and could only push from the front. I ended up just urinating when I tried to push. 20 minutes ater my daughter's body had been delivered, another doctor arrived. One of the midwives on duty had become concerned by what was happening and had called him at home and got him from his bed. He came swooping in, gave me an episiotomy and removed my daughter's head with his hands. She was born without a heartbeat at 7:37am yesterday morning. The NICU staff immediately began working on her and got her heartrate back after 8 minutes. She was put on a ventilator.
Currently she is still on the ventilator. She is being cooled to 33.5 degrees to prevent further brain damage. She has machines and tubes doing everything for her. We were told today that her chances of survival are good but that she will likely have some form of lasting brain damage. She has wires on her head that record her brain waves on a machine and we have been told that these are showing that she is having seizures.
I am so scared for my little girl. Her name is Phoebe Lauren. I am so angry at the countless mistakes that were made in the 17 hours I was in the labour ward when she could have been delivered by section. She would likely have needed help as she was premature but she wouldn't have been starved of oxygen for 20 minutes. She wouldn't have brain damage. I created a perfect human being and the negligence of 1 doctor and 2 midwives have changed who she is forever. I can't bear the thought that she may suffer.
I don't know what to do. Noone can tell me what to expect. I want to hold my daughter and hear her cry. I want to take her home. I understand that noone can tell me how long anything might take but I just feel so desperate.
I wish I could trade places with her. I feel so helpless.
As a result I ended up having to give birth to my daughter vaginally. The registrar who was delivering her (and who had made all decisions regarding everything that had happened previously) chose to do nothing when my daughters head became stuck and her cord was wrapped tightly around her neck. She insisted I continue pushing even though I was no longer contracting. She refused to let me take my legs down from the stirrups and had 2 members of staff hold them there (I have bruises) even though I told her I couldn't push from my bottom like that and could only push from the front. I ended up just urinating when I tried to push. 20 minutes ater my daughter's body had been delivered, another doctor arrived. One of the midwives on duty had become concerned by what was happening and had called him at home and got him from his bed. He came swooping in, gave me an episiotomy and removed my daughter's head with his hands. She was born without a heartbeat at 7:37am yesterday morning. The NICU staff immediately began working on her and got her heartrate back after 8 minutes. She was put on a ventilator.
Currently she is still on the ventilator. She is being cooled to 33.5 degrees to prevent further brain damage. She has machines and tubes doing everything for her. We were told today that her chances of survival are good but that she will likely have some form of lasting brain damage. She has wires on her head that record her brain waves on a machine and we have been told that these are showing that she is having seizures.
I am so scared for my little girl. Her name is Phoebe Lauren. I am so angry at the countless mistakes that were made in the 17 hours I was in the labour ward when she could have been delivered by section. She would likely have needed help as she was premature but she wouldn't have been starved of oxygen for 20 minutes. She wouldn't have brain damage. I created a perfect human being and the negligence of 1 doctor and 2 midwives have changed who she is forever. I can't bear the thought that she may suffer.
I don't know what to do. Noone can tell me what to expect. I want to hold my daughter and hear her cry. I want to take her home. I understand that noone can tell me how long anything might take but I just feel so desperate.
I wish I could trade places with her. I feel so helpless.