So So Sscared Right Now PLEASE READ

[Lauraaraa]

Hello

i am gettin myself so worried........

i am having real problems with my period.

have put a post up on the TTC but i know i am going to have problems conceiving.

My periods have gone crazy ever since last year. startd to be very painful to the point where i couldnt walk and felt mega faint and ill. not nice i just thought oh well this is what periods are all about.

then in march my period lasted for 19 days on and off. was on period more than i wasnt.

in april i had a period at the end of the month. the 19th - 25th (ish) but mid week i had to go to hospital due to the pain, and it made me sick was at work and just had to keep running to the toilet to be sick.....and the pain was un-describeable - was agony. so i went to hospital for them to just give me the medication i already have......and a dipositary to put up my butt, which i couldnt do...am funny about that sort of thing. the pain had gone by then.

any way this month - May - i started bleeding again last weekend, and low and behold STILL am. really tired of it now. i havent got anny period symptoms that i usually get its just as though i am bleeding.

i went to the docs again on friday who has referred me to a Gynacologist <- spelt wrong!!

so i am now stressing my self to bits thinking 'what if i cant have a baby', 'what if theres something really wrong with me' etc etc

now the reason i am so worried is because i had an eating disorder.....started when i was 15 as anorexia, my periods did stop but returned and were normal but painful. to the point where i was crawling around on the floor when i lived at home.

the anorexia led to bulimia which i still struggle with....i am now 22, 23 in october. so i just think i have done some damage.

i already had to have an operation in december 08 to remove a lump in my breast a phyllode tumour <- also spelt wrong!
but was told that if this had been left would have turned cancerous.

my brother is studying to be a doctor and read this was more than likly due to hormonal imbalance caused by my stupid eating disorder.

so whos to say that my fertility hasnt beenn effected.

i am scared and feel like i have just ruined my body so much it is now punishing me for everything i have put i through

lately i have been thinking 'why couldnt i just be normal? why?'

but i cant turn the time back

i am going to start praying each night that i can have children if i cant i dont know what i will do. i dont.

anyway

thankyou for reading i just needed to get it out and write it.

Much Love

Laura

xx xx

 

[DiddyDons]

Hi hun. I am sorry to hear about your problems, I kinda have the same problem. I know you have read my story and you will have seen in my sig aswell that I hadnt had a period for 2 years when I feel pregnant with Sophie and even before then they were all over the place.....Worse than anyones ive ever came across. I lost sophie and had 2 regular periods for the 1st time in my life...(they were 33 day cycles and I bled for 5 days in the cycle iykwim) Then about a year ago it was sophies due date (20th may) and I lost it totally...I couldnt cope and ended up on anti depresants...which I think messed up my cycle again. Since then I havnt really had a good enough diet. I do eat and I dont have a eating disorder...but I dont eat as much or as often as I should and know I should...
I got diagnosed with PCOS in DEC 08 and I have a hormone imbalance. Ive tried allsorts to help with my PCOS...but so far no luck Ive actually not had my own period now since AUG 08...although Ive had a few induced bleeds. Ive been tested and all my homrones are there and are working...just not together.

Gyne seems to think its my weight. I was placed on metformin 6weeks ago and lost alot of weight and ended up in the underweight category on the BMI chart....I was that underweight that I wasnt even on the chart He wants me to put on weight as he thinks it will help...and TBH I think it will aswell...when I fell preg with Sophie I was a healthy weight (for my size) so I do think weight is a factor and I think you are doing the right thing by seeing a gyne. Im sorry to hear about your eating disorder you once had, I do think you may need a bit more weight on you aswell and your body might sort its self out FX...

I hope you can understand all of this....I feel like Ive rambled and made no sense of it lol.

PM me if you want to ask anythin?! x x x

 

[JASMAK]

I tend to have really lengthy and heavy cycles myself...and very close together. I will have AF for about 10-12 days, and they come about every 23-25 days (that is counting from first day of AF). So, that doesn't leave very much time for me to not only try to get pregnant, but also, just to not have AF. I have spoken to all kinds of DR's about it, and their suggestion is always the same: go on birth control. When I tell them that I am trying to get pregnant, they have no answers for me. They are super heavy too. I will go through one super tampon in about 1/2 hour during the heaviest days. Night time is horrible when it's heavy, as I wear two maternity pads and change often throughout the night. But, the good news for me was that I did conceive despite this, and I do have two healthy children. Since then, I have been trying to conceive with much difficulty and losses, but I really doubt that it has anything to do with my AF or crazy cycles. But, that is me, and I think seeing a OB/GYN is a good idea. How long have you been TTC for? Funnily enough, I too was anorexic (but not bulimic). But, I have always had cycles like this, pretty much since the first AF.

 

[BizyBee]

 

[Bebecake]

Okay... I want to start off by saying that you can't dwell on the past. All you can do is focus on now and the future. So, you need to not blame yourself or get upset with yourself about something you might not have been able to control I think we all blame ourselves when we have infertility thoughts. It is completely normal... I always think of what I could have done differently to make my fertility better. All I can do now is make sure that I am healthy, and I am doing everything possible to bring a baby into this world

Make sure your gyno gives you a pelvic sonogram. I had HORRIBLE pains during my period and found out that I had endometriosis (cysts on my ovaries/bladder/intestines) This was affecting my ability to be fertile. I had a laparoscopy last November. My doctor says that I'm better and I'm ovulating now... My periods aren't as bad, but more importantly sex is great.... (sorry if tmi) Do you have any issues like that? If you do it could be because of cysts. Get checked out! You are young, so the faster you get treated the better off you will be.

Good luck and keep me informed!