So worried.

[TCooper]

Hi ladies.
I'm on month 3 of ttc without much luck, and I can feel myself spiralling into a black hole today.
I have been checking my cervix, and today noticed it was high and open, all good, slightly watery, whitish discharge that's a little sticky, again good.
But suddenly felt a little spot like thing on the opening of my cervix.
I've googled like mad and can see a lot of people, in fact most, have some kind of polyps and what not, but I have convinced myself it's something awful and that i must be infirtile and I'm just driving myself insane.
I've booked in for a smear but they can't see me until 2 weeks time.
I have no symptoms of anything untoward, literally just this little spot.
I just need a lift guys, I'm not in a good place

 

[2ducks]

Hello! Try not to panic. I noticed the other day on my daily check that my vagina felt kind of lumpy. It was really weird. The next day it was back to normal. If you have never had an abnormal pap smear in the past things are probably ok. Do you live in the USA? If so, you can usually get into planned parenthood quickly. You have definitely come to the right place! My first few months ttc I thought i would get pregnant so fast, I think a lot of our expectations are high because we don't always understand the reality of the situation. Try to keep your mind off anything negative and get involved in something distracting today.

 

[TCooper]

Hu! Just to update, I managed to get in to see my GP today and she has had a look around and said it all looks normal.
Has a smear done too so that's all done now. I can't tell you how scared I was. My first thought was just oh my gosh. Something is wrong. What if I can't have children.
I guess I didn't realise how much all this actually meant to me!

 

[2ducks]

phew! Glad things are ok!

 

[WishnandHopn]

I'm glad it turned out to be nothing! I've recently noticed my cervix feels a bit bumpy...but I'm not sure if it was always that way or what, since I only started feeling it since starting TTC. I think we just get so hyper aware of our bodies while TTC, whether we're trying to figure out if we're about to ovulate or scrutinizing every "symptom" during the tww. I have an appt with my doc on July 12...will have an exam then and will be asking for a referral to a fertility specialist since we've been TTC for over 6 months TTC as of June 21.