Soooo scared!

[Kas75]

Having a difficult day 2day got a BFP yesterday and feeling very scared. Its very early only 2-3 weeks.

We miscarried in May and to be honest it broke a part of me and im not sure how im meant to act with the BFP both myself and my hubby are going to take it one day at a time. I really thought I was just late cos of the meds i'd been on for an infection I really thought the test was going to be negative and just did it really to put my mind at rest. I had such a bad nite last nite and been so careful 2day. I know its silly but I blame myself for the miscarriage in May, maybe I slept funny, maybe I ate something I shouldn't, maybe I did too much, maybe I stressed cos we wanted it so much all these things may sound silly but I can't help the feelings. our son is 11 now and thats was the first pregnancy after many many years of us pretending we were fine with just the one and we should be as he is our world and just the most amazing little boy! And we know how lucky we are as some are not so fortunate.

I just don't feel like I can get excited until after the amount of weeks we lost the last one, until the scan hell until I hold that precious bundle in my arms! Feel like im losing the plot. I should be the happiest person ever. And I will be once the fear subsides!

Do any of you feel this way too?

Sorry I did ramble a bit!

 

[Deniz]

Sorry for your loss & congrats on your BFP

Unfortunately we couldn't get excited about this one My husband & I want to be happy and have a plan just like last time; but we stop ourselves. I just hope we can reach 12w line asap & be happy!

 

[Kas75]

Thank you for the reply, its nice to be able to be on here as we have decided not to tell anyone after what happened last time so feel very alone.

Im sorry u are feeling the same way, altho its a comfort knowing im not going mad.

Bring on the 12 week mark fingers crossed for you, slow and steady wins the race! One day at a time eh?! xxx

 

[humblebum]

I'm not excited yet either, I daren't even really get my hopes up at all. Hope everything is ok for you and the weeks fly by! xxxx

 

[Smiler79]

Hi Kas

Everything you are feeling is perfectly normal and understandable.

I miscarried at 7 weeks in October last year but am now 28 weeks pregnant! I still worry about the tiniest of things.! I worried that my miscarriage may have been caused by something I had done or didn't do but I know deep down that it wasn't.

All I can say in way of advise is just to take each day as it comes and maybe set little milestones to look forward to rather than trying to look all the way forward to the birth. My milestones were 7 weeks (when I miscarried) then 12 week scan then 20 week scan then viability at 24 weeks. NOw IAm just counting every extra week that Bob is inside me as a bonus and am slowly starting to get excited about his/her arrival.

I am here if you need to talk. YOu can put a message on here or private message me.

Thinking of you and looking hoping to hear good things from you as the weeks go by xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[fifi-folle]

Congratulations! I also found out on 2nd. Having had four early miscarriages I totally understand how you are feeling. I keep stopping myself from planning ahead. My current target is to make it to my early scan next tuesday.

 

[Kas75]

Thank you all for the replies.

I like the milestone idea! Im gonna do that and just try and stay positive everyday is a blessing that bean is still in here!

I hope this time works out for us all.

Slow and steady!

Good luck everyone and thank you for your advice and support. I don't really know anyone on here so its great that we all have things in common and can take comfort from others that are going through or have been through similar situations.

Lotsa love xxx

 

[lilwelsh1]

i feel exactly the same way. I only had my bfp 2 days ago. I cant get excited i cant look forward too far, its just too scarey. I have told my husband sister and 1 close friend. I am tip-toeing towards the 6week mark, i lost at that stage last time, if i get passed it i will have a tiny bit of hope and then i will tip-toe towards the scan and so on. Just taking it a day at a time and every visit to the loo i brace myself for bad news. I then worry that im being too negative! Before bed i do put my hand on my belly n quietly ask bean to cling on in there. Congrats to all on your bfp's. Im glad i can pop on here and hopefully sneak past each stage with ladies who understand xx

 

[Kas75]

The waiting is awful, we havent told anyone dont want to worry people after what happened in May and thats silly really but at this moment in time don't want to add any further pressure on myself. One step at a time.

Good luck and look forward to following ur stories xxx