Hello All, I havent been on here for a while, things have been a bit difficult and i have been trying to sort myself out. It was my dd Ellie's 1st birthday on 6th of this month and its been pretty hard to come to terms with. (She was born asleep at 25 weeks). I wanted to ask (anyone who's reading) a question. Have any of you been to a spiritualist church before and if so, what actually happens? I'm going to one tonight which does clairvoyance and wanted to be prepared in advance. My dp is coming although he doesnt believe in all that, he's coming to hold my hand really. Some people have said i'm mad to go to this and will get very upset but i feel i really need to do this. I have Ellie on my mind constantly and have nightmares about her being on her own without her Mummy. I need reassurance that she is ok and feel this is the only place that might help me do that. Anyone any ideas?