still terrified by previous loss

[MissyMojo]

i lost Flump in May 2009, a mmc.
i went on to have a beautiful amazing little boy november 2010,
im now 5w pregnant and terrified, i cant seem to relax, i want to poas every day, even though i knw from bitter experience it doesnt mean anything
i would really like an early scan but mw wont send me for one before 8w, which feels an age away.
i dont even know if theres anything any of you can say or anything i want you to say , i just needed to get it all out,
i'm full of cold, hormonal and tired

 

[SabrinaKat]

Hi,

I don't post much here anymore (but look up some of my old posts/threads!), but it's normal how you feel! Just because you got your rainbow after your mc (mine was in August 2009; LO arrived safely in Feb 2012), dosn't mean that you still won't worry. My OH and I are 'talking' about trying again -- in another year or so, tho (and I'm 44 now), but I would be worried as well (not just due to age)...Just take it one day at a time, try not to get too worried or anxious and look forward to each milestone.

As for a scan, you could go private for an earlier scan, perhaps, but if you are like me, probably won't relax until LO is safely in your arms...!

best wishes (and congrats!)

 

[MissyMojo]

had a scan just after 8w and all was well, im now able to find thumper on my doppler daily, such a reassurance - just need the next 30w to fly over and then thumper will be safely in my arms

 

[Sarena]

Congratulations! and best of luck with everything! Its reassuring to see everyone worries. If i get as far as you, I'm definitely getting doppler too.