Lotti1978
MC @7 weeks-Angel Oct09
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Hi
I miscarried at 6 weeks pg.....
I had some time off work but then went back, too early as I found out and other commented on this at work....I was signed off for a week initially and it was the worst week ever,,,,had another shock, my hubby had agreed to a friend (not close) to come over from oz for xmas, for 7 weeks and to bring her friend for xmas....ARGHHHHHHHHH I felt ill......anyway, he did it with the best intentions but another example of him not listening,,,,Id mentioned so many times that it would be unbearable to have her here as she hasn't changed since she was 15...very manipulating and draining.....after one week I told her everything...she knew about the miscarriage but not that my marriage was strained....she took off and came back for xmad day.....It was a very stressful shock at a very bad time!!!!!!!!! I did improve thought a few days later I felt some strength.....I had been in a very dark place, felt like I couldn;t cope and function.
Im back to work and a sense of normality but my marriage isn't great. About a year ago amidst a very stressful time, I woke up one morning and felt differently about my husband....since then we have been ok apart from sexually...I don't want to have sex with him, I feel nothing passionatly.
Since the miscarriage, i feel the last scraps of loving feeling has died. We get on really well and have a lovely life but the intimacy has gone for me.
I feel I have changed since the miscarriage, I don't remember things like normal. I used to be very organised and sharp but Im not, this was apparent lately as its christmas but also in many areas of my life....I feel like there is a part of me that has died....a void, black hole that has changed me and I fear I will never get back to my old self.
Sorry this is long, I just wondered if anyone else feels similar?????
Hubby thinks Im suffering from PTS-post traumatic stress, I have had many stresses over the years, big ones, not normal life ones....maybe I need a holiday or something??
Thanks for listening
Love and Light
Charlotte xxxxxxxxxxxx
I miscarried at 6 weeks pg.....
I had some time off work but then went back, too early as I found out and other commented on this at work....I was signed off for a week initially and it was the worst week ever,,,,had another shock, my hubby had agreed to a friend (not close) to come over from oz for xmas, for 7 weeks and to bring her friend for xmas....ARGHHHHHHHHH I felt ill......anyway, he did it with the best intentions but another example of him not listening,,,,Id mentioned so many times that it would be unbearable to have her here as she hasn't changed since she was 15...very manipulating and draining.....after one week I told her everything...she knew about the miscarriage but not that my marriage was strained....she took off and came back for xmad day.....It was a very stressful shock at a very bad time!!!!!!!!! I did improve thought a few days later I felt some strength.....I had been in a very dark place, felt like I couldn;t cope and function.
Im back to work and a sense of normality but my marriage isn't great. About a year ago amidst a very stressful time, I woke up one morning and felt differently about my husband....since then we have been ok apart from sexually...I don't want to have sex with him, I feel nothing passionatly.
Since the miscarriage, i feel the last scraps of loving feeling has died. We get on really well and have a lovely life but the intimacy has gone for me.
I feel I have changed since the miscarriage, I don't remember things like normal. I used to be very organised and sharp but Im not, this was apparent lately as its christmas but also in many areas of my life....I feel like there is a part of me that has died....a void, black hole that has changed me and I fear I will never get back to my old self.
Sorry this is long, I just wondered if anyone else feels similar?????
Hubby thinks Im suffering from PTS-post traumatic stress, I have had many stresses over the years, big ones, not normal life ones....maybe I need a holiday or something??
Thanks for listening
Love and Light
Charlotte xxxxxxxxxxxx