cacahuete
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We had our 20 week scan yesterday and it was confirmed we were having a boy, my husband kept asking me if I was ok, and I kept saying yes, I know first and foremost I want baby to be healthy, but I was so convinced it was a girl, we had a scan at 14.5 weeks, and we couldn't see a dingle ( she checked a few times) and my pregnancy was so different at the start, and everyone kept saying I look like I'm carrying a girl.
But I'm not. It's another boy, I have 1 already, I lost a little girl before we had my first son, and I had a second mc also, so I kept thinking maybe I just can't carry girls. So I was so happy when I thought it could be a girl .
I never had a relationship with my mum, so I always wanted to have my own daughter mother relationship and you know , do the girlie days! I used to hear stories of my friends going out for the day with their mum, getting their hair done, going for lunch, just going for walks together and I just really wanted to be able to do that,
Since I had an ecs on my first, I'm not sure if I would go again after this one, I just wish I could shake the sadness, I'm so happy he is healthy, ESP after losing 2 I was sure I wouldn't ever feel disappointed with what we were blessed with, but yet I can't shake myself today .
But I'm not. It's another boy, I have 1 already, I lost a little girl before we had my first son, and I had a second mc also, so I kept thinking maybe I just can't carry girls. So I was so happy when I thought it could be a girl .
I never had a relationship with my mum, so I always wanted to have my own daughter mother relationship and you know , do the girlie days! I used to hear stories of my friends going out for the day with their mum, getting their hair done, going for lunch, just going for walks together and I just really wanted to be able to do that,
Since I had an ecs on my first, I'm not sure if I would go again after this one, I just wish I could shake the sadness, I'm so happy he is healthy, ESP after losing 2 I was sure I wouldn't ever feel disappointed with what we were blessed with, but yet I can't shake myself today .