pinkflamingo
Mummy to an angel x
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Hi all!
Just felt that I wanted to put in words the positive feeling that I have today and that I refuse to be defeated by this awful experience.
For those that don't know, a scan confirmed our loss in mid December and I chose to wait for a natural miscarriage. This took 8 weeks and happened at the weekend. It was a long and tremendously difficult time, but it also gave us time to accept the reality of what had happened on an emotional level before it actually happened physically. This was 100% the right thing for us and I am so glad that medical intervention was not needed in the end.
Anyway, I am now determined that I will look to the future and be as positive as I can be at all times. Sure there will be bad days, with tears and sadness over what has happened, but I must look to the brighter days that will come too.
I made myself go to the hairdressers today and have my colour done and a pretty drastic cut! I feel a little bit new, as after weeks of slobbing about I have changed something about me.
DH and I are going away for Valentines weekend, and as New Year and Jan were so rubbish (having had the news about baby in Dec, and just waiting for it to happen), we have decided to write them off and have a new years eve celebration during our weekend away. Our 2011 will start with a toast to our baby and a clean page ready to be filled with happiness and ttc.
I have also done a HPT today and got my first negative. I have a scan booked for next thurs to check that all has gone, and once we get the all clear from that (and the bleeding stops) then it will be full steam ahead on the ttc front.
I am on a mission for that baby, and this lady will be getting what she wants!
Good luck all! xx
Just felt that I wanted to put in words the positive feeling that I have today and that I refuse to be defeated by this awful experience.
For those that don't know, a scan confirmed our loss in mid December and I chose to wait for a natural miscarriage. This took 8 weeks and happened at the weekend. It was a long and tremendously difficult time, but it also gave us time to accept the reality of what had happened on an emotional level before it actually happened physically. This was 100% the right thing for us and I am so glad that medical intervention was not needed in the end.
Anyway, I am now determined that I will look to the future and be as positive as I can be at all times. Sure there will be bad days, with tears and sadness over what has happened, but I must look to the brighter days that will come too.
I made myself go to the hairdressers today and have my colour done and a pretty drastic cut! I feel a little bit new, as after weeks of slobbing about I have changed something about me.
DH and I are going away for Valentines weekend, and as New Year and Jan were so rubbish (having had the news about baby in Dec, and just waiting for it to happen), we have decided to write them off and have a new years eve celebration during our weekend away. Our 2011 will start with a toast to our baby and a clean page ready to be filled with happiness and ttc.
I have also done a HPT today and got my first negative. I have a scan booked for next thurs to check that all has gone, and once we get the all clear from that (and the bleeding stops) then it will be full steam ahead on the ttc front.
I am on a mission for that baby, and this lady will be getting what she wants!
Good luck all! xx