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Hi all,
I just joined. My boyfriend and I are getting pretty serious about starting a family together, but we have decided to wait until January arrives to make a conscious effort! 2013 hasn't been the best year for me - new year, new start and all that. New baby too?!?!
Help.
I won't lie - I spend most of my spare time worrying about one thing or another. Recently (of course) I've been worried that I won't ever be able to get pregnant. I know that probably sounds silly, seeing as I haven't started trying yet, but I just can't get the thought out of my head. I came off the pill in March, having spent around eight years on it with very few breaks. My first two cycles were both 34 days (I think). Then my cycles have been 30 days, 32 days, 28 days and 30 days respectively. My last AF started on October 1st so I am now on day 9 of my cycle. I think my luteal phase is about 13 days.
I have been a little freaked out by my cycles being a bit irregular - unfortunately I don't really remember what they were like before I went on the pill, just that I had one AF every month, so they must have been fairly regular. I didn't know much about counting the days of your cycle back then (I will be 26 at the end of October).
Is it likely that I am NOT ovulating, do you think? I have some fairly good signs - EWCM sometimes allows me to predict exactly when AF will come, but other times I don't get very much of it, I think perhaps when I have not been well-hydrated? I also get very sore nips (oo-er) after I have presumably ovulated and up until about 1 or 2 days before AF. I am just finding my cycles confusing - this month for example, I completely miscalculated when predicting my next AF, due to very small and misleading amounts of EWCM and was convinced that AF was late and that I was pregnant! Then I got spooked out by my flow ... it seemed to be lighter than usual, and also shorter, so I'm looking forward to another one like that next month so I can tear my hair out all over again. I can feel myself slowly going a bit mad to be honest. Although I know charting would probably finally put my mind at rest, I am almost scared to try it, in case it shows that I'm not ovulating and totally infertile and ... agggghhh.
Does anyone else feel like this? The wait is almost too much to bear. I just want to KNOW, RIGHT NOW, if that makes any sense.
What do you guys think? Are my cycles normal? Does anyone else have cycles like these? Did you, or anyone you know, manage to get pregnant despite being almost convinced you/they were prematurely menopausal/infertile/anovulatory?
I should add that I have been pregnant once before when I was 17 (an accident), so I must have ovulated at least once in my lifetime ... ended in MC at around 10 weeks, but the baby had stopped developing at around 6 weeks. I think this traumatic experience probably gave birth to my total lack of faith in my reproductive system ... then again, I remember being convinced that I would never start my periods after my mother explained about them when I was eight.
Bugger.
Anyway, all input welcome, and sorry for the long post/rant.
Meep. x
I just joined. My boyfriend and I are getting pretty serious about starting a family together, but we have decided to wait until January arrives to make a conscious effort! 2013 hasn't been the best year for me - new year, new start and all that. New baby too?!?!
Help.
I won't lie - I spend most of my spare time worrying about one thing or another. Recently (of course) I've been worried that I won't ever be able to get pregnant. I know that probably sounds silly, seeing as I haven't started trying yet, but I just can't get the thought out of my head. I came off the pill in March, having spent around eight years on it with very few breaks. My first two cycles were both 34 days (I think). Then my cycles have been 30 days, 32 days, 28 days and 30 days respectively. My last AF started on October 1st so I am now on day 9 of my cycle. I think my luteal phase is about 13 days.
I have been a little freaked out by my cycles being a bit irregular - unfortunately I don't really remember what they were like before I went on the pill, just that I had one AF every month, so they must have been fairly regular. I didn't know much about counting the days of your cycle back then (I will be 26 at the end of October).
Is it likely that I am NOT ovulating, do you think? I have some fairly good signs - EWCM sometimes allows me to predict exactly when AF will come, but other times I don't get very much of it, I think perhaps when I have not been well-hydrated? I also get very sore nips (oo-er) after I have presumably ovulated and up until about 1 or 2 days before AF. I am just finding my cycles confusing - this month for example, I completely miscalculated when predicting my next AF, due to very small and misleading amounts of EWCM and was convinced that AF was late and that I was pregnant! Then I got spooked out by my flow ... it seemed to be lighter than usual, and also shorter, so I'm looking forward to another one like that next month so I can tear my hair out all over again. I can feel myself slowly going a bit mad to be honest. Although I know charting would probably finally put my mind at rest, I am almost scared to try it, in case it shows that I'm not ovulating and totally infertile and ... agggghhh.
Does anyone else feel like this? The wait is almost too much to bear. I just want to KNOW, RIGHT NOW, if that makes any sense.
What do you guys think? Are my cycles normal? Does anyone else have cycles like these? Did you, or anyone you know, manage to get pregnant despite being almost convinced you/they were prematurely menopausal/infertile/anovulatory?
I should add that I have been pregnant once before when I was 17 (an accident), so I must have ovulated at least once in my lifetime ... ended in MC at around 10 weeks, but the baby had stopped developing at around 6 weeks. I think this traumatic experience probably gave birth to my total lack of faith in my reproductive system ... then again, I remember being convinced that I would never start my periods after my mother explained about them when I was eight.
Bugger.
Anyway, all input welcome, and sorry for the long post/rant.
Meep. x