I've had a bit of a rough week this week. (possibly TMI . . . )
When I had the really early mc/chemical back at the start of 2012 it was quite sudden, really painful for about 2 hours, then I passed a massive odd looking clot and felt much better and it all cleared up in a couple of days.
This time I passed a massive clot on Halloween, and then bled for a bit but not too much or too painful. Last Sunday it then suddenly started pouring out. I was passing loads of clots along with watery blood all day. Managed to stop it by lying down but getting up started it off again. By Monday it had slowed down sufficiently so I went back to work but on Thursday started cramping again and after having had heavy bleeding all week I was a bit scared so called the docs - couldn't get an appointment so when home to bed.
On Fri I'd had enough, was an emotional wreck and pretty scared so went to the walk in centre who told me to go to the early pregnancy assessment unit at the hospital. I called them - they said they needed the walk in centre to refer me. OH left me in the car to go and ask the nurse to refer me, they said they couldn't I had to ask my own GP!!! We called our GP and explained and they said they'd give me an appointment so called the hospital back but they took pity on me and booked me in anyway (can't tell you how grateful I was to their staff nurse!)
When I got there they apologised for the walk in centre! I had a test - still showing pregnant but the scan showed nothing viable. Basically I think its not come away cleanly so there's something still producing pregnancy hormones but my body is producing non-preg hormones which explains why I felt somewhat hormonal and unstable!
For now they want to leave me to pass it naturally and I have to test in 2 weeks and call them back. If its positive they will then get me in for another scan and discuss what to do. They say I can expect to bleed for another 2 weeks . . . so rubbish (I'm sure I should be dead I've bleed so much and its costing a fortune in sanitary towels . . . I'm expecting the always share price to spike!!!)
I have to say the hospital were absolutely fantastic - really caring and sensitive. They say since I am now under their care if I get pregnant again they will scan me early to make sure its all ok. Although there is a link from that ward to the maternity place its completely separate so you don't have to walk through rooms of happy people (which I couldn't face at the minute!).
So that's me really . . . still bleeding although I feel a bit better today. I am completely exhausted which I assume is because my body is having to replace the blood its lost.
Ho hum . . . it can only get better!
That is so considerate of you to worry about hurting your friends when you're the ones dealing with TTC and loss! I would tell them, and if they happen to bring up the conversations you have had, just say they couldn't have known and you don't fault them.
so sorry you are having to go through this mini sending big hugs and get plenty of rest xxx
