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[anneliese]

When I called the doctor he said that it could just be very early (which is it I suppose) or that it could be a miscarriage. I will know more on Thursday when I get my other results back

 

[smawfl]

Fingers crossed for you!

Have you tried any other tests?

 

[smawfl]

So we're CD1 today.. TTC has officially commenced!!

Annelise - how are you feeling, have you tested again. Hope tomorrow goes well.

DS - how are you feeling?

How is everyone else? Pusscat, are you on the TTC boat yet?

 

[ds0910]

I'm hangin in.

 

[Pusscat]

Anneliese - that is strange that the line is getting more faint. Hope you find out what's going on. Let us know

Smawfl - what are you doing ttc -wise besides the obvious?! Are you temping/using ovulation tests etc? I took my last pill in this pack on Monday and I don't want to take any more but not start ttc until July. Want to give my body a month to get back to normal. Still not totally sure if I'm ready because when I think about it I feel scared! But excited too. It's just different this time knowing what to expect! It's the giving birth bit that still terrifies me

 

[smawfl]

Smawfl - what are you doing ttc -wise besides the obvious?! Are you temping/using ovulation tests etc? I took my last pill in this pack on Monday and I don't want to take any more but not start ttc until July. Want to give my body a month to get back to normal. Still not totally sure if I'm ready because when I think about it I feel scared! But excited too. It's just different this time knowing what to expect! It's the giving birth bit that still terrifies me

Oh I'm not sure I feel ready but I definitely think DD is! I don't want to leave it too long to give her a brother or sister.

I'm VERY casually temping.. and have been doing OPK's the last couple of months which has been useful as it's helped me pinpoint OV and work out my LP which in fact isn't as short as I had thought.

I still get spotting a good few days before AF, but my hormone levels were normal so hopefully that shouldn't affect TTC

 

[smawfl]

I'm hangin in.

 

[Pusscat]

I just downloaded the fertility friend app to my tablet and logged in. One step closer! I might see if I can find my thermometer Just out of interest of course, to see if my cycle is still the same

 

[anneliese]

Hey ladies, my blood test confirmed early miscarriage since my levels dropped from 15,9 to 7,1. I was already certain it was a miscarriage though because I began bleeding pretty heavily the night before. Surprisingly I am feeling ok. Sometimes i get a little sad when I think of what it could have been, but I think because it was so unexpected, and everything happened so fast, I didnt have time to really process everything.

I am happy for all of you ttc though! I bet it will happen quickly since almost everyone fell pregnant on the first attempt last time, right?

 

[smawfl]

Oh sorry to hear that Anneliese hope you're ok xxx

 

[ds0910]

So sorry Annaliese. Glad you seem to be holding up ok

Well my Dr told us to wait a cycle, but we haven't really been all that careful But I just don't know what's wrong with me! I can't seem to make myself do anything. The laundry is piled up, sink is overflowing, cubbard is almost empty, but I just can't bring myself to do anything about it I just want to curl up and hide under the covers and sleep. Been having headaches, just hasn't been a very good time lately and I feel like the worst sahm in the world............I just feel stuck

 

[minimoocow]

Don't beat yourself up about it. It takes time to heal physically - maybe you feel like you need to curl up and sleep because you do! Time to recharge might give you the space to feel better mentally. Can you get anyone to help do a few chores/get some shopping in etc? It might make you feel the world better. If not just do the stuff that needs doing and leave the rest! Maybe set yourself a target of just 1 job a day that you can achieve.

 

[ds0910]

Thanks Minni. I'm pretty much on my own though. David works all the time AND has started back to school, my mom is mentally disabled now from brain bleeds so she can't help, my dad doesn't get it, and I just feel too weird asking Davids fam for help like that because I get the feeling they would think I should have my shit together by now. And on top of all that, a good friend died on the 19th at 30yrs old, and today my sis (who I count on for more motherly things since ours isn't able) shattered her ankle in a riding accident and is on her way to uab for major surgery to repair it. Not a good month.

 

[smawfl]

Hugs DS.. don't be so hard on yourself. If you don't feel like doing stuff so what. Take it easy hun xxx

Mini- are you back? How was the hol??

 

[Pusscat]

Anneliese - sorry to hear you got it confirmed Hope you're doing OK, sounds like you are

ds - omg, that has been a rough month for you. You will get through it and I'm pretty sure you'll be pregnant again soon. As long as your little family is happy that's all that matters. Give yourself time

My news - we are officially ntnp! Not going to restart taking BC tomorrow after my pill free week. Discussed with DH and he thinks now is the right time to start TTC #2 Want to give myself a month though to track my cycle.

 

[smawfl]

Woohoo Pusscat, very exciting!!

 

[minimoocow]

Anneliese - sorry to hear your news but hoping it happens when the time is right for you x

Pusscat - that's exciting!

Smawfl - yep we are home. Hols were great. We went to Croatia. It's well worth a visit so pretty and cheap!

I'm home from work as I nearly fainted in the loo! Been to the docs and got the all clear. No idea why it happened but my period is really heavy today so putting it down to that although it's never happened before.

On a more positive note we have an appointment with a fertility person. It's private not via the nhs as we know that we don't want Ivf. This programme looks in depth at your chart to pick up hormonal problems and then treat them so you can conceive naturally so we are going to give it a go. The lady seemed really positive that because I've had two miscarriages we will have a positive outcome and they can also investigate why I'm miscarrying which was a plus for me as the nhs require me to do it a third time before they will look into it. Appointment is next Wednesday after work so fingers crossed it gives us something to work towards . . .

 

[smawfl]

Glad you had a great time Mini! I know a few people who have been and said the same thing.

Sorry you're not feeling great, get lots of rest!

Great news on the fertility appointment, hope it goes well. How come you don't want IVF if you don't mind me asking? That's rubbish about the NHS though, so sad they would expect you to go through the heartache a third time before investigating

Let us know how you get on!

 

[minimoocow]

We're not keen on IVF for a few of reasons:

IVF it is very invasive and you have to be 100% committed to it but ultimately its a medical procedure (and I hate hospitals!) I want to try something more holistic that will be an important part of our lives but not the only thing. Having been trying for 2.5 years now I feel putting all our hopes and dreams on IVF would be too much of a rollercoaster for us right now and I'm not sure I can deal with that. I might end up with a baby but at what cost?

The route we are looking at views the relationship between the partners as important. Going down the IVF route means trying to find the problem with one or both of the partners and treating them individually. I've already felt pushed out when DH was offered testing and I was told to wait so I'm hoping this route allows us to build our relationship rather than test it to the limit.

Finally I'm not entirely comfortable with the idea of creating embryos that then don't get a chance - i.e. they might create 5 but only implant 2. I'm not sure that's entirely rational and I can't really explain that any further but just to say my gut feeling is that this isn't right for me.

I do think IVF has helped loads of couples to have babies and I don't have a problem with it in general. (i.e. in the same way as I understand women chose to have abortions and I don't have a problem with that but I don't think I'd ever have one)

Sorry that's a bit of a ramble but I wanted to answer your question! I don't think we've completely ruled IVF out for ever but for now we want to try something else

 

[smawfl]

Thanks Mini. I guess that makes sense. You've definitely got to do what is right for you both.



Definitely let us know how you get on, sounds like a really interesting approach and one that sounds like it suits you both xx