Hi Daisy Meadow.
I'm so sorry hun - you will hear this phrase alot, if you havent already. The difference is on here we are truly sorry & we understand every emotion that you have been through, are feeling and will feel in the future.
I hope you revisit to read messages on here, as the ladies on here will post messages, many will make you smile, and many will make you cry. Its horrible to know that there is someone new on these threads but please be assured that we can help. We have all been there and are going through what you are.
The feeling of disbelief that its happened is still with me too. I'm not sure when that goes away.
I'm told as time goes by things do get better. Its hard to believe at times, but it does. In the 5 short weeks that my son has been with the angels I have improved slightly but am still so cut up about it. I find myself being strong for a few days only for all my emotions to burst out again.
If you need to cry then cry. If you feel like doing nothing then do just that! You need to do whatever you need to do to help you get through the first few weeks.
If you need to scream/shout/cry or ask questions....you will have questions, then please ask. This is a very safe place & hopefully you will come to find this forum as a saving grace emotionally.