The "wait"

[FreeSpirit]

Hi ladies! Its been quite a while since I posted anything. I had a blighted ovum over the summer and basically hid out for several months. I had experienced quite a bit of troubles after I miscarried.

But out of nowhere 2 weeks ago... I started feeling strange. I was crying for no real reason and a side salad from my cafeteria at work suddenly tasted - amazing. (weird). I took a pregnancy test and it turned out positive. I was shocked - I thought my cycles were so messed up that it would take quite a while to get pregnant. The next day I had a doctors appointment. Based on what was probably my last period - I am now 6 weeks pregnant. However - I find it hard to really truly ... believe. Last time I thought I was - I went in for an ultra sound and saw only an empty sac - and no baby.

So I am going in for an ultra sound on March 1st. And I am really scared that it won't go well. I know it is out of my control and that I simply have to let this go. But none the less - I am hopeful - but reluctant. I haven't told many people about my pregnancy. As last time - I had spilled the news to everyone - then had to explain my pain to wayyy to many people.

Whats even more strange - I had been having pain and problems prior to finding out I was pregnant. I had an ultra sound done a week prior to finding out I was pregnant. And blood tests. To find out why I wasn't feeling well for several months after my miscarriage. The appointment I had with my doctor the day after my positive test - was actually a follow up to review my results. The ultra sound I had a week prior to my positive test - showed only an increase in blood flow to my uterus. The doctor said it was normal at that stage of pregnancy to see just that. (still ... not reassuring). My blood test results showed very low vitamin d... explaining alot of my other issues the last few months. Sorry this post is so long.... but I have to just this out. . . I'm trying to stay positive. And I guess I have to admit - its just so hard to be.

 

[mamaduke]

I know the fear of the ultrasound after a m/c. We discovered at 8w that our baby stopped growing at 7w with no yolk sac via ultrasound. So this pregnancy, when the OB asked for an ultrasound at 8w again, I was trembling while walking down the hall to the ultrasound room. I, too, expected the worst after my 1st experience with an ultrasound showing a m/c. What's supposed to be easy for us to handle becomes nerve-wracking. Even now, at 33w, I always wonder what they'll tell me if I have another ultrasound.

As for telling everyone last time around and being cautious this time, don't feel bad about being cautious. DH and I took the same approach as you - excited last time around and now cautiously optimistic this time. We didn't tell anyone until after the 1st trimester, with the exception of a couple people that we're close with who helped us through our m/c.

Here's hoping your ultrasound on March 1st goes well.

 

[L999]

good luck xxx

 

[Mom2mmcjg]

Low vitamin D is linked to miscarriage, so its a very good thing your doc caught that. My level came back at 17, so doc put me on 5000 iu per day. He told me to take the vit D by itself (not with my other vitamins) and take it with food (preferably a meal with fat content) as that will help the absorption.
My first U/S is March 9th, I'm trying not to think about it, but its very hard. I pray your U/S shows a healthy LO growing strong with a steady HB!