Third loss PLUS loss of fallopian tube. I'm gutted.

[BabyG8686]

I just lost my third baby. It was the first loss with my husband, I had two MC in my last serious relationship before him.

My HCG levels went up to nearly 5,000 but there was nothing in my uterus. Then they found it in my fallopian tube. They tried methotrexate but it didn't work. My tube ruptured and I hemorrhaged internally and had emergency surgery to remove the fetus and my right fallopian tube.

Now I'm just... so sad. I'm hoping my left fallopian tube is healthy but I have a feeling that the IUD I had years and years ago may have caused scarring in my tubes when I got PID because of the IUD dislodging and my body rejecting it.

I'm afraid I'm going to lose both of my tubes and my chances of having a baby which is all I've ever wanted. I've wanted to be a mom forever. I have an amazing mother that made motherhood a goal for me. Now I feel it slipping away.

My husband doesn't like the idea of having a surrogate but I already have a friend who says she'd do it for us and she's promised this to me for the last 16 years. She even reminded me the week before we got married and we were talking about having babies. I don't know what I'd do if he wouldn't agree to having a surrogate.

I'm so gutted. Having a family has always been my biggest life goal. I want children so badly. I feel so broken.

 

[Jft1]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I had an ectopic in November and lost my left tube and I was so terrified it would have made TTC so much more difficult. I had emergency surgery too and felt so low after it. It took my body a while to ovulate after it and I was worried it was never going to happen. But it did, and now we're TTC again. Keep your chin up and stay positive xx

 

[Bevziibubble]

I'm so so sorry for your loss

 

[Monka]

So sorry for your loss. Hopefully my little story will help to not to give up: 8 miscarriages in 5 years. 3 years after couldn' t get pregnant. I gave up. And now I am 43 years old and 4 months pregnant. Good luck.