This is awful!

[silarose28]

I'm feeling so upset.

Tonight my dh was supposed to come home so we can bd. I made a nice meal, made myself look nice and waited. He hasn't come home and I feel a bit upset because I think he might have gone drinking. I am probably over-reacting but am finding things so hard. I stupidly phoned my sister in tears. As it happens she started lecturing me about how she was worried about me and how I was taking things too far!!! I KNOW THAT! This is horrible. I feel obsessed and worried most days and it's awful. I should have known better than to speak to someone who hasn't gone through this! Am I being stupid?! I can't help myself! I put the phone down in the end and have turned my phone off. I need to calm down but feel so upset. I never thought difficulties ttc would be so hard. Sorry to go on but I just don't have anyone around me who understands. Everyone is has kids, is pregnant or thinks I am mad as they have never tried!

 

[Crypto1976]

Hey hun, I hear you. Its a terribly difficult time and it hard when you feel oh isnt taking it as seriously as you.

As for interferring rellies, I find that very painful too. Its easy to say that you are taking it too seriously, however TTC does get a grip of you.

I have been obessed for 9 months!

I think its hard also when you have made an effort. Truly, I dont think you are overreacting on that score and courtesay would dictate that he at least let you know.

Chin up hun, it will happen. Maybe have a word with oh, and explain how hard this is for you. XXXXXX

 

[Sambatiki]

Stupid men! I really dont think that they realise what a small time frame there is to get preggers.

Its impossible not to get 'involved' with TTC esp when its something we all want sooo much. People who have not been an LTTC dont understand the heartache xxxx

Sending you HUGE

 

[silarose28]

Hey girls

Thanks for your replies. I'm so glad I can rant and get upset here where people listen and understand. x

 

[BizyBee]

 

[reallyready]

Many Silarose.
Hang in there!

 

[Dancingkaty1]

hello I do hope u are ok.......
men! what are they like hey! we have been trying for a year now & for the 1st 9/10 mths I felt like my husband didnt want another baby as badly as i did. Every mth i came on he didnt seem to bothered, i would be crying & he would just be carrying on like nothing happened! Was worse once i had been diagnosed in june with polycysts. I felt such a failure. We went to see specialist in aug & she said that it may be husband with the prob, not me! his sperm count is low & motility is low. I was relieved but sooo shocked! He has been wonderful since then...doing everything he can to improve sperm...even taking massive pills ( fertile aid 4 men) which i never thought he would do lol!!! Im glad he is finally taking it alot more serious as i felt like i was coping by myself before so i can completely understand where u are coming from. I do hope he trys to understand more, i remember i used to do opk's & i would txt my husband....ive got a smiley face!! be home asap!! lol.....it did put pressure on things...i dont do them anymore altho i do still count what day i am on...its just habit now lol!!!

baby dust to us all !!

katy xxxx

 

[silarose28]

Thanks everyone. This site is just so supportive - it's really helping to be able to chat to pepole who are in the same situation with ttc.

He came home at about 11.30. We had a huge row - he wouldn't leave me alone and keep apologising which made me really lose my rag! He's had a hard time in work and gave into peer pressure about going out for a drink - but that is no excuse as he knows how important this is to me!!! Alcohol really affects his performance so he knew he woudl ruin things by going out (ha ha - he would die if he knew I had written that!!!)

This is a bit out of character for him and I'll forgive him tonight and we will till have time this month - but I've been feeling really fragile today. Big dark circles around me eyes and can't concentrate etc. Ttc has turned me into an over-sensitive wreck!! I hate it!!!!

My sister called me and when I told her the whole story she apologised which was nice fo her. Though I still think there is an element of her just not 'getting it' since she has never ttc. I'm going to avois chatting to peolpe who don't understand in the future as it make you feel much worse!