When I was pregnant with my first and found out he's a boy I was davestated. I cried for days. I hated the thought of a boy with how dirty, stinky and rough they are. I didn't imagine how I could play with cars, mud or bugs or all those other boy stuff. I didn't want to deal with the "penis" phase where they're constantly grabbing it. Buying him clothes was so depressing cause I thought the clothes are so ugly and sad. All of this changed over time. I love my son to pieces. I still am not a fan of hot wheels or monster trucks, but I'm a big fan of him. Gender doesn't have to state who your child will become. This time we got a girl and I was escalated but like you I'm not a fan of hot pink or that princess attitude, so I just buy the outfits that don't piss me off! I think it's good to experience both worlds honestly as it'll help us grow so much, and your relationship with your own mother has nothing to do with the relationship you'll have with your daughter unless you let it. I say it'll become so so easy once she's here and you see her coo and laugh and just be a normal baby like any baby. Her gender will not matter one bit!