Trying not to get my hopes up...

[tinymumma]

Ok, so I'm a part of the Miscarriage support forum, but I thought this wouldn't be appropriate to post in that particular forum. SO, I lost my little peanut on the 21st of May. I have had one proper cyce since the miscarriage, which was 23 days long. I'm now on day 25 and there is no sign of Aunt Flo. I'm not trying to get my hopes up or anything, as if I am pregnant, I'm going to be scared to death that I'm going to lose them, again.
For the past week I have had the thick, creamy, slightly yellowish cm that I got when I was pregnant. My boobs are a little tender, especially when I wear a bra and my cp is high and it's still slightly soft, but definitely not hard. Now I'm filled with watery cm and it turns creamy, kind of like toothpaste in my underwear (Sorry guys, that was utterly TMI ) Just thought I woul get your opinions. Just my way of letting it out, instead of it just running around my head.

 

[emalou90]

Sorry for your loss honey.
I've my fingers crossed for you. Not sure about your symptoms but other ladies will know. I didn't want to read and run.

I can't remember any of my symptoms apart from boobs! xxxxx

 

[Mrs W 11]

Fingers and toes crossed for you. Stay positive xx

 

[tinymumma]

It was a no go. Day 29 and AF showed her face this morning. Absolutely heartbroken :'( I actually end up falling pregnant every 2nd- 3rd month, but I lose it every single time. I'm sick to DEATH OF THIS!!! I have to sit and watch all of my friends (not to mention all of the poepl I really don't like!) fall pregnant within a month or without even trying. They find out when they are just over 4 weeks and 9 months later, they are welcomeing their healthy, gorgeous baby into the world. Where the hell is mine!!! I just want to be able to STAY pregnant

 

[hope4bbyno1]

They find out when they are just over 4 weeks and 9 months later, they are welcomeing their healthy, gorgeous baby into the world. Where the hell is mine!!! I just want to be able to STAY pregnant

I know just how you feel girl!!!! I have 13 siblings between biological and step siblings, they all have atleast 1 kid, I am in the middle age of them all, and I still have nothing. I've had 3 miscarriages in the past 2 years, and 2 of them have been right at the 11 week mark. The last one was because my doctor said (even with my high miscarriage risk) that they won't bring me in for an ultrasound until 12 weeks. Well literally the day they called me to set up the US, I had a miscarriage. I have low progesterone, you may want to have that checked out. If you do, I've heard progesterone cream will help, and if you have GNC store (it's a nutrition store) they sell progesterone cream and natural pills that are suppose to help you conceive easier.
I've always hated (no offense to anyone else) when I see someone who just finds out they're pregnant or just have a baby. I'm happy for them, but some of these people I've seen around my town that are having babies, don't even deserve to have them. My sister-in-law (soon the be ex) up and left her 1 year old son (my nephew) because HE was getting all the attention, and nobody was paying attention to her. She also left my brother for a carnival worker, and told him "I don't want anything to do with you or the baby." Really????? ugh.... breaks my heart!!! But seriously, you should probably talk to you doctor and have a few things checked out, get an ultrasound done to make sure there aren't any blockages or anything like that too. Good luck

 

[dairymomma]

I'm with you there, tiny. DH and I have been married for 5 1/2 years and I've had 7 m/c in that time. ALL of my married sibs and sibs-in-law have had AT LEAST 3 kids in that same time and are either currently pregnant or just had a baby. It's awful being the odd one out. We've been blessed with two miracle children despite my troubles and that helps but it's still hard to see everyone else having baby after baby without trouble.

What's helped me the most is seeing a specialist. Numerous tests have ruled out causes for my continued pg problems but we do know I have low progesterone levels in the first trimester.This was diagnosed after my 3rd miscarriage. I also have a history of bleeds in the uterus but those are, as yet, unexplained. For that, I take a baby aspirin a day during my pregnancies. I'd for sure go get some testing done and have your next pregnancy monitored closely if you can. Because I typically m/c between 6-9 weeks (though I've had one at 15 weeks), I call my dr as soon as I get a bfp to get my progesterone prescription and I see her between 6-8 weeks for my first appt. I get an ultrasound at 8-9 weeks to check things out and make sure there's a heartbeat and usually a follow up ultrasound is ordered for about 14 weeks.

Good luck and I hope you get your sticky bean soon!

 

[tinymumma]

Thank you so much guys. The support on here is overwhemling! I know what you guys mean about everyone else getting pregnant and having to just sit back and be jealius. It drives me UP THE WALL! I have tried going to doctors, but because I'm still young and are able to fall pregnant, they are telling me that everything is fine adn it will happen when it's time. They refuse to send me in for testing or anything like that, because they try and tell me that since I'm ovulating, they have no reson for concern. I just think it's really unfair. I know I can get pregnant, as I said it happens every 2nd or 3rd month, but I can never carry anything longer than 6 weeks The doctors have tried to tell me that since I'm I'm not even close to thirty, that everything is fine and that one day it will happen. I don't even really know what testing would invlove, if you guys could enlighten me? I don't want to start anything like Clomid, since I'm against medical use such as the pill and clomid, since they change the way your body normally functions. Since I started taking Vitex (a natural herbal suppliment), I noticed the problems I was having with my cycels, eliviated. HOWEVER, although it has helped me greatly in becoming pregnant, it hasn't changed the fact that my body rejects all those little beans. I know there is nothing they can do to make sure the pregnancy prgresses and doesn't fail.... I just want to know why all this continually happens and how to fix it!! Gaaaah
All my love to you special ladies xoxo Baby dust to you all

 

[dairymomma]

I'm not 30 yet either and I was able to get in to see a specialist after my 3rd consecutive miscarriage. That was when I was diagnosed with progesterone issues. All of my first losses were between 6-9+4 and that's what tipped the doctor off. The enxt time you get pregnant, go in and get it confirmed as soon as you can. And stand up for yourself. I had to push for more testing than the dr figured I needed even after I'd had more m/c. It also doesn't hurt to push for a progesterone prescription. Progesterone and baby aspirin helped my carry my ds and dd to term. If you can't find a doctor to listen, keep looking for someone who will. If you are having m/c after m/c consistently at the same point, then no matter WHAT they say, there's something going on there. Good luck and I hope you find someone who'll listen!

 

[emalou90]

Hey sweet, do you take any vitamins either? I'm not experienced in miscarriages so can't really offer any help, other than, do all you can do by yourself, supplements (non invasive, just herbal of course) and one day it will happen we are all here for you, so vent away if needed xxxx

 

[Anniebobs]

Hi,
I've just had my first mc, still going through it really. But as soon as the bleeding stops we'll be trying again. I also know people who are pregnant, seems like everyone is at the moment. My best friend is due a month after I was supposed to be, I'm happy for her but it still hurts. I know it'll be a constant reminder of what I've lost too.
I'm lucky that I already have a beautiful little girl, but am so ready for baby number 2. Roll on O time!

 

[NotNic]

I agree about pushing for investigation. A friend of mine found she had a hostile uterus after she had 3mcs in just over a year. As soon as she fell pg again she was told to go straight to the drs and was put on steroids and probably some other things too. She was 26. She now has a one yr old. Regardless of your age multiple mcs is something that needs proper attention. Don't be fobbed off.

 

[floridamomma]

I completely understand and im sorry your going through this. my husband and I lost 2 babies since dec and it hurts soo bad. I can get pregnant but the furthest ive carried is 9 weeks. my dr said if I mc again then I can get further testing.