Trying not to get my hopes up

[DragonTamer]

Hi, I'm new to this board and I'm at the tail end of my TWW. DH and I have been TTC since August of 2007 with absolutely no results. Only diagnoses I've been given are PCOS, Pituitary adenoma (non secreting) and Type 2 diabetes...we've pretty much given up but every month every little symptom gets my hopes up (I'm not even allowed to let DH know if I think I might be pg until I get the BFP because he's tired of getting his hopes up too)

Each month I will think "am I" and take a test but it never fails that its a BFN and AF shows up within a day or two. I hate myself for wasting money on HPTs and thinking it could be anything other than that BFN. This month I'm wondering if all my hoping and praying has possibly paid off...I don't know exactly when ov was (stopped charting after the 2 yr markout of frustration) but I do know it was around the 1st due to OP and EWCM was right around then. On Thursday (approx 12 dpo) I had some ever so slight spotting and thought for sure AF was coming. When AF didn't show Friday DH and I did some BD for the fun of it and it just felt differnt? Sunday I felt weird when I was shopping, kind of dizzy and almost nauseaous? Then today I took a HPT and *THINK* I got a very faint BFP!!!!! I'm not 100% sure but do know my sense of smell seems to be very sensitive and I've dry eaved a couple times. I want to tell DH but last time I *thought* I had a faint pos it turned out to just be an evaporation line I'm trying not to get my hopes up but its killing me that DH is oblivious to everything...should I drive him nuts and tell him and possibly have him get mad if it turns out I'm wrong?

 

[DragonTamer]

Oh temp was near 99 this morning and got up to 100 earlier today, never noticed before with my other children but could that be a possibility?

 

[immy11]

Take another test and see if you get the same thing! What test did you use? You should get a frer if you havn't already.

 

[DragonTamer]

Take another test and see if you get the same thing! What test did you use? You should get a frer if you havn't already.

I used the new walmart 88cent tests (they are actually made by the same company that makes the Clearblue Easy tests) I have another one and will try again tomorrow morning. I haven't been able to justify spending the money on the frer tests just yet...if I get the same result in the morning I will wait a couple days to allow for the HcG to increase and get a frer. I work at dollar tree so I don't buy them, I don't want my co workers knowing my business...lol

 

[immy11]

I'm not sure what those are, I'm from Australia and we don't have Walmart or dollar tree. Maybe they aren't as sensitive as frer's so your levels just aren't high enough yet? Anyway I hope you get a bfp soon!

 

[DragonTamer]

I'm not sure what those are, I'm from Australia and we don't have Walmart or dollar tree. Maybe they aren't as sensitive as frer's so your levels just aren't high enough yet? Anyway I hope you get a bfp soon!

The tests I was referring to are economy brand cheap tests for women like us who have an obsession with POAS...lol anyway I went to the store and bought a pkg of digital tests to eliminate the need to see lines and it was a BFP!

 

[immy11]

Yay!!! Congrats! I'm so happy for you! How did DH react?

 

[Maisie2b]

This is a great success story!! Congrats xxx

 

[mellywelly]

Congratulations!!!! Have you told your DH yet?

 

[DragonTamer]

Yes I told hubby. Here is how and the conversation went...

I handed him a cute white and red box and told him to open it...
He did took the digital test out said "i always needed one of those, set it down took out the pacifier, stuck it in his mouth and dug around the box some more, I picked up the test and shoved it in his face... once his eyes focused on what it said the funniest conversation ensued...

Him "Who?"
Me "me!"
H: "nuh uh, your lying"
M: "no"
H: "are you serious?"
M: "yeeaahhh"
H: "your sure?"
M: "yes"
H "now is this a good test?" (While holding it up)
M: "yes one of the best out there"
H: "now you didn't go stalk a pregnant chick and make her pee on this did you?"
M: chuckling "NO silly, I'll take another one if you want right in front of you if you want"
H: "no that isn't necessary"

After that conversation he stood up hugged me (and wouldn't let go. When he pulled his head up off my shoulder to kiss me he was crying

It was sooooo sweet, this will be pregnancy #5 (baby #4 - angel baby in heaven) for me but baby #1 for him... my exes were not this sweet when they found out I was expecting there babies

 

[seabean]

Such a sweet story! Best of luck for a healthy pregnancy!