Carmello_01
Grateful everyday
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I wish I could be hooked up to BnB constantly, you ladies (and gents too) are so lovely and positive...
Pregnancy after miscarriage is hard. I'm on a constant thought cycle of feeling grateful then telling myself not to get too ahead of myself then feeling like an a**hole for thinking that then feeling sad then feeling scared,then feeling really scared and then knowing we had a lovely strong HB on early scan on Friday and stupidly comparing it with the hb of the baby we lost...
I'm my own worst enemy! I want to enjoy this, the angel we lost would have been with us on Christmas eve (booked c-section) and as this day gets closer my head space gets worse and worse. I thought I'd cried all the tears I could.
So in love with this little bean in my belly, and of course my gorgeous toddler. I feel like I need permission to enjoy this time. Gah!
I know so many of you have been through this and are going through this at the moment...
Pregnancy after miscarriage is hard. I'm on a constant thought cycle of feeling grateful then telling myself not to get too ahead of myself then feeling like an a**hole for thinking that then feeling sad then feeling scared,then feeling really scared and then knowing we had a lovely strong HB on early scan on Friday and stupidly comparing it with the hb of the baby we lost...
I'm my own worst enemy! I want to enjoy this, the angel we lost would have been with us on Christmas eve (booked c-section) and as this day gets closer my head space gets worse and worse. I thought I'd cried all the tears I could.
So in love with this little bean in my belly, and of course my gorgeous toddler. I feel like I need permission to enjoy this time. Gah!
I know so many of you have been through this and are going through this at the moment...