TTC #1- Looking for buddies!

[steph1607]

OMG Jmack!!! How lovely to have you back, we missed you! Sorry to hear you haven't had any luck yet, hopefully your test results will shed some light on what may be going on.

Sunny this is just the best news to see. So very excited for you.

TB, how frustrating. Our bodies just seem to do the most irritating things sometimes.

Dream, really hoping for some good news from you today.

Sarah, good luck this month!

AFM, had the best long weekend - so much fun. Too much alcohol, too much dancing and too much unhealthy food, so overall a huge success. I submitted my application for the MSc in Adult Nursing last week and have been invited to attend a selection day at the end of this month. Need to do lots and lots of prep!

 

[Dream143r]

I'm so full of emotions this morning. I can't stop crying. I'm angry, irritated, sad, defeated, annoyed, depressed just so many things rolled into one.

CD28 - 12DPO
Test seems to be the same as yesterday. I can see a colourless shadow. but honestly I don't think it's really there. I've just reached a point of desperation to see something, anything at all on these tests after TTC for a year. I feel defeated and I just want to give up. It's just not fair.

To add to my stresses, my stupid cousin (the one who got knocked up by a random tinder hookup and has no idea who her baby daddy is) is HARASSING me about her baby shower and if DH and I are attending. The shower isn't until MAY 5th and I just got the invite on Thursday AND it doesn't have an RSVP date. Leave. Me. Alone.

I don't enjoy being the Debbie downer, but I know you guys understand it's needed at times. I just can't seem to get my emotions in check today. I cried when I took the test this morning. I cried in the car on the way to the gym. I cried in the bathroom at the gym. And now i'm locked in my office at work, still crying. This is so overwhelming.

Sometimes I feel like maybe we need a break. but seriously, a break?! time is ticking we don't have time to take a break. I feel like I'm just waiting for AF now. She's due Friday. I know I'm not out yet technically, but when it's the same story every cycle it's really hard to believe that. CD1 usually makes me feel better, I hope that will be the case again.

My appointment with the fertility doc is "coming up" April 26th. Looks like by then I'll be in another TWW. I'm hoping to get cycle monitoring done with him and then maybe move to IUI if he thinks its a good fit.

And.......Breathe.

JMack - I haven't met you before I don't think, Hi! Sorry, I'm probably not making a great first impression. I'm a good person, I swear. lol

Sunny - Impatiently awaiting those beta results.

Steph - Sounds like fun RE:selection day. Hope you get everything you need.

 

[SarahTTC3]

Ohhh Dream! I am sorry you are having a rough morning! Praying it gets better as the day goes on. I know how frustrating it can be. I do agree with you about the baby shower! Why does she need a RSVP so soon... Baby showers can be so hard especially when you have been trying for so long. It seems like everyday someone is posting they are pregnant and you wonder how? Why is it so easy for them but so hard for some of us.

Jmack- Welcome back! Let us know how the results come back. Sending good vibes your way!

Happy Tuesday Everyone!

 

[jmack54]

Thanks for the warm welcome back Steph! That is great good for you! I'm sure they will select you! Good luck preparing!

Thanks for the good vibes Sarah! What's your current TTC situation?

Dream- lol trust me I don't judge you based on that post! We have all had days like that. I feel you 100%. Sometimes it seems impossible to function and act like everything is normal when you just want to scream to everyone what you are dealing with. I always find some weird peace and relief on CD 1 as well. Hang in there and fingers crossed you get that BFP!

SunnyBe I can't wait to hear your story! I've missed keeping up with you!!

 

[SarahTTC3]

Jmack- This is our first official month of trying. I stopped Bc at the beginning of the year after being on it for 9 years and had a OB appt to get everything checked. I found out I had pre cancerous cells and had the cryotherapy done last month. Got the all clear from MD last Weds to begin trying. We have a 16 year old (his) and 10 year old (mine) and we are wanting an OURS! I ordered the OPKs from amazon and they should be arriving today. I was told by another OB that I had PCOS but not really sure how accurate that is. It was a quack doctor that I didn't trust very much. So far my OB doesn't think I have it. So we will see how things go from here.

 

[SunnyBe]

Tb, how's that possible! I bet you're just extremely frustrated right now.

Jmack, yayyy you're back We missed you. Sorry to hear you haven't been successful yet. Hope the results come back okay.

Steph, thanks hun! Glad you had an awesome weekend. So what exactly happens on selection day? Very exciting.

Dream, I completely get what you're saying The end of the TWW is always the worst. Is your DH taking the right vitamins? Will there be a repeat SA in a few months? Really hope something easy as that will do the trick. I always feel better on CD1 too, not sure why. Fresh start I guess.

Sarah, I hope you'll get lucky this month. OPK's and temping really give you great insight into what is happening inside your body.

AFM, results are supposedly in but the doctor needs to review them first... They'll call me in between patients. I had waiting!!!!!!

 

[jmack54]

So good to be back Sunny!! Where are you at in the IVF process? Sending lots of good vibes!!

Aw thanks for sharing your story Sarah! I hope you get a doctor you trust and you and your husband get your perfect little bean!!

 

[SunnyBe]

Got them back. 221 Really happy. Betabase has a median of 130 at 14 DPO.

Jmack, I had a transfer in December, but BFN. The month after, I got pregnant naturally but my lines never got strong and my beta was just 12. Crushed.

This month was our last month trying before starting BCP and going back for one of our (4) frozen embryos. So happy

 

[SarahTTC3]

YAY SUNNY!!!!!

 

[jmack54]

Wow I came back at the right time Sunny!! What amazing news!! I'm SO thrilled for you!

 

[Dream143r]

Sunny - DH is on a Multi, CoQ10, Zinc and Selenium. As recommended by my ND. I'm assuming this doc will want a repeat SA. The last one was October and done by the dummie doc.

221!!!!!!!!!! Wow! Yay, OMGGGGGG. That's amazeballs. Eeeek! are you doing a 2nd draw for comparison? When when when?

 

[AmberR]

Jmack! So glad that you and back! If I remember right, you were the one who originally started this group!

Dream- I am so sorry. Feel free to vent away! I know there is nothing I can say to make it better but I will be thinking of you

Sunny- so incredibly happy for you. That number is fabulous!!

Steph- glad you had a wonderful weekend, sounds lovely!

Sarah- hope your OPKs arrive soon!

 

[jmack54]

Thanks so much Amber!! I'm so excited to see that you are pregnant!! Did you get pregnant naturally?? Congratulations love!!! Tell me the whole story lol

 

[jmack54]

Omg- I just made the mistake of logging into my patient portal online and reviewing my day 3 bloodwork (appt is Thursday). That was a huge mistake- I'm having a full blown meltdown. Should not have looked and def should not have googled. High FSH and low AMH. I think I'm going to have to leave work. Ughhhhhh sorry to come back and be such a Debbie downer!

 

[SunnyBe]

Thanks girls!!

That sounds about right Dream. If he's into tomato juice, he can add that to the list too (or get lycopene supplements). Second draw is tomorrow morning, results Thursday. Scared but cautiously optimistic.

Jmack, oh no I'm so sorry. How high and low are we talking (in case you want to share). Maybe it's just in the upper range. Hang in there!!!

 

[AmberR]

Jmack- oh no!! I hope it's not too bad for you. Sunny is a wealth of knowledge so feel free to share your numbers if you want and she should be able to give you some insight!

Thank you! It took me a year to get pregnant the first time and then I ended up having a long drawn out missed miscarriage. I fully expected it to take another year to get pregnant, but once my cycle returned it only took 2 months! So far everything is looking good, so I am working on staying optimistic! Now I'm just waiting for my anatomy scan on May 4th!

 

[jmack54]

Thanks Sunny. Just had to post mid-panic! It's so hard not sharing this stuff w the people around you!

AMH 1.77 and FSH 11. I don't really know that much about it so just started googling. Bad bad idea!!

 

[jmack54]

Aw Amber I'm so sorry about your miscarriage but so glad you are pregnant again! I will stay optimistic for you! What a great surprise!! Xo

 

[tbfromlv]

Sunny that’s amazing!! That must feel so reassuring!!

Dream- we have all been there. TTC is HARD. Especially as you sit here month after month dreaming and hoping and wishing and watching others so easily obtain the dream. I saw something the other day that said “infertility is like being the only one sitting in the stands while you watch everyone else play a game that you’re not qualified for” and it really does feel like that. The good news is, it’s not over and there’s much we can do to continue to fight on this journey!

Steph- so glad you had a nice weekend! It was well deserved and sounds like you had a blast!

Jmack- so glad you are back! I’m sorry about the results. You talk to your doctor about them soon, correct? I’m a google freak as well (which has actually benefited me a lot in this TTC journey) so I’d be a hypocrite to tell you to stop! So my advice is to make sure you read credible sources and write down questions for your doctor so you can get all the information you actually need.

And yes 3 LH surges in one cycle?! Ugh what on earth is wrong with me? I’ll hope for a rise tomorrow but otherwise I’ll hang in limbo until my official consultation.

 

[tbfromlv]

Jmack- I haven’t done too much reading but I did see that your levels aren’t crazy high or low. I read normal AMH is 1.5 and up and normal FSH goes up to 10. You might ask for a redraw at your next cd 3 just in case.