TTC #1- Looking for buddies!

[tbfromlv]

Well ladies, CD 1 for me too. So all three of us are cycle buddies this time- maybe that will mean something good.

I had a good cry last night to DH. He was very sweet and reassuring that we would continue to try and do whatever it takes to have the family we both want so much. It was just nice to hear.

I spoke to the fertility doctors via email yesterday. I wanted to find out what their thoughts were on coming in as soon as I start or what. Since my numbers were low enough, she said we can go ahead and continue when AF came. I will call them tomorrow to schedule my baseline. Hopefully there aren't any issues that will lead to canceling the cycle again. I really strongly believe that I have a lining issue, which could definitely directly relate to having these early losses. We shall see. They like to schedule within Cd 2-5 and CD 4 and 5 will be over the weekend, so I expect they will see me on Friday.

Thank you guys for the support by the way. It really does mean a lot.

 

[Bloblo]

Tb, good to hear that you have dh for support. And sending you a lot of luck for the coming cycle!

I also have a feeling that I have lining issues, its frustrating in a way - now that we have diagnosed the 'male factor' the fertility doc is just focusing on fixing that. All my examinations came up clean, but we got pregnant twice and i wasn't able to hold on to them, so i can't shake this feeling that there must be a second issue

 

[steph1607]

Oh TB, I was so sorry to read your news, things can be so unfair sometimes. I hope that your doctors will be able to provide some answers. Although I hope more that you have no lining issues, and these were just two very, very unfortunate 'random' losses. (I hope that doesn't come across wrong)

Sunnyyyyyyy, let us know what happened yesterday please! Caught up on your blog yesterday - sooo ridiculous but I had tears in my eyes when I read the bit about me. I'm cracking up even writing this because that is so sad, but I think it made me realise how sick I became!

AFM, I was discharged on Tuesday 😊 Happy days. (In case anyone was really curious, I wrote huge essay a page or two back in my blog about it all!)

 

[Dream143r]

Well my ND was thrilled my cycle was 29 days. She's happy we're effecting change in the right direction moving towards a "normal" 28 day cycle with ovulation on CD14. We are going to do 2 more sessions which will put me right up to O this cycle then shes's off for a week after Christmas. Following this cycle in the new year we will review next steps (if I don't get my bfp) and how we adjust the approach. She mentioned perhaps some Chinese herbs and such.

I'm pretty excited to be back on fully temping again but even more so my OPKs. I usually O CD17-19 and I'm hoping for an earlier O this cycle. Maybe CD15 or 16 would be nice. We'll see what my body has to say about that.

She looked at my tongue and veins and said shes not seeing what she would prefer. Bright red tongue and strong blue/purple veins on CD1. So we will continue with the weekly acupuncture sessions to see if we can't get that to what she wants to see.

I love that our cycles have synced up! Makes this cycle exciting!

Steph - glad to hear you're feeling better.

 

[tbfromlv]

Oh Steph, just read your posts. What a crazy and scary week! I am so glad you’re feeling better. Now when you have a stubborn teenager one day, don’t forget to remind them of the hell they put you through!

Dream that is good that your cycles are improving.

AFM I think I experienced the actual miscarriage this morning. Woke up about 4 am in intense pain. I was dizzy and lightheaded trying to get water in the kitchen and had to yell for DH to get up because I truly thought I was about to pass out. Then throw up. I also felt like I was having hot flashes. I was on the bathroom floor in lots of pain and really started worrying. I got up to get some more water and saw my lips were completely white! I finally made it to a semi comfortable position on the couch and fell asleep for maybe 30 minutes. Woke up shivering uncontrollably. That eased up but then back to hot and the pain started again. Finally the pain eased up and I feel like a normal human being again. Started to make me wonder if I had an ectopic and that’s why I was feeling this way. Tomorrow I have a baseline ultrasound scheduled for my new medicated cycle so I’ll bring it up. Sheesh!

Sunny- can’t wait for the update. I didn’t know all that about the Estradiol. Hopefully it doesn’t negatively impact you as much as you are fearing.

 

[Dream143r]

Oh wow TB that sounds very intense. Amazing that a little ball of cells would cause all of that. Sounds like you're feeling a little better though, happy to hear.

 

[SunnyBe]

Tb, sounds like you had a really rough time You've been through so much already, I really felt like it was your time to get lucky for once. Sorry you were in so much physical pain as well. Life can be beyond unfair sometimes!

Good luck with the ultrasound tomorrow.

Dream, ahh back to temping and OPK's Hope this month is your month.

Amber, sorry for CD1. I hope with all three of you being cycle buddies, this is the start of lots of BFP's in our little group!

Bloblo, have you tested your progesterone levels after ovulation? Maybe you can ask your OBGYN for an ultrasound before ovulation to check how thick your lining is. There's stuff to take for that in case that's an issue.

Steph, ahhh I'm so glad you're feeling better. You gave me quite the scare to be honest. Hope the follow-up appointments show you're in good health Also very curious to hear about your embryos. Were they really frozen on Day 1?

AFM, 23 eggs retrieved and 13 are mature and fertilized. I've just updated my blog. I'm expecting a large drop soon, but who knows? With healthy eggs/sperm, you'd expect about 20-25% of Day 1 embryos to make it to Day 5. I really hope we'll be that lucky and have some to transfer/freeze.

I was in a lot of pain this afternoon. All very sudden. I honestly never experienced anything like this in my life. Luckily, the painkillers the doctor gave me helped a lot. Still, pretty scary.

 

[tbfromlv]

I’m wondering if part of my pain is from the endometriosis. I never really had any pain before but that doesn’t mean it can’t start.

Sunny it does feel very unfair. I started reading about some studies showing a significant increase of miscarriage risk for people with endo so I had to quit reading. I don’t want to go down that rabbit hole right now!
I hope you have better success than what you’re thinking! I had typed up a bunch of questions, then stopped and read your post. I’m glad I did because you answered every one of them in there lol I remember when I had my lap done I had the similar freezing situation as well as saying some interesting things I don’t remember! I’m sorry you’re not feeling great, I hope the pain doesn’t get much worse and I am so excited for your transfer!

Blo- I agree with Sunny about getting checked for progesterone and scan. In March and April last year I had ultrasounds to monitor my cysts and my lining was really crappy (one was 7 dpo and was only 4.2) so I really want to fix that. I just wasn’t sure if the effects of my lap had corrected the problem, or if that was not a normal thing for me..but I’m questioning it big time now.

 

[SunnyBe]

Google can be your worst enemy sometimes Tb! It's hard to find a balance between staying informed and wanted to claw your eyes out because of all the stuff you read and are now worried about.

The good thing is that you're being monitored. They'll be able to see exactly what's going on what could be going wrong. Maybe it's just a case of needing more progesterone support in your luteal phase.

Thanks, and yes, I feel much better today I just got another report and all 13 are still alive! 8 are 1-2 cells and 5 are 2-4 cells. Those progress reports are awesome but I can't help but feel they stress me out a bit as well lol. Some clinics don't inform you until Day 5. Let's see how many make it to cleavage stage tomorrow!

 

[Dream143r]

Ohhhh exciting - Good luck Sunny.

TB - I was thinking the same what Sunny said about your progesterone levels.

AFM: CD3, nothing to report. Hope you all have marvelous weekends. I'll be packing the whole time.

 

[tbfromlv]

Wow so far so good sunny! And I’m glad you’re feeling better!

Well, I’ve been taking progesterone suppositories every cycle since the surgery. I usually start them 3dpo, but this last cycle I didn’t start until 10 dpo. So I guess it could go either way on it being a progesterone support thing. In August, my progesterone levels were tested at 7dpo and were amazing! But then I still had that loss. So I’m not sure. I have my baseline in about an hour and I’ll get to talk to the doc about it.

Dream- good luck with the move!

 

[steph1607]

Ah Sunny, what lovely news! I read your blog on the morning of your retrieval and was desperately trying to telepathically tell you that my E2 levels before trigger were absolutely SHOCKING and yet I got 36 eggs. I hope you got my message and weren't too anxious. I bet receiving those calls every day can be very stress inducing. Will they give you a day 4 update? Mine don't because they say there is never much to report and it just increases anxiety.

Hope your appointment goes well today TB, I can imagine it is horrible trying to work out why this has happened to you twice now. I hope you are managing to feel a little brighter each day love.

AFM, still just having sofa days over here. Hubby is on annual leave so it's worked out quite well. I still feel so wiped out physically. I was speaking to a friend last night and I realised that I'm having a bit of a dip I think. Overjoyed to be out of hospital and recovering and then I remember what landed me there in the first place, and of course that's not something that's going to just go away.

As for the whole frozen on day 1 thing, yes, everyone seems to find that unusual! I'm sure they do it for a reason, but last week I didn't really have chance to think about it. I have a follow up with my clinic on Monday morning so will try and get it all clarified then. Hubby and I were thrilled that we have our 15, but then we remembered that it's not as if we have 15 day 5s!

 

[AmberR]

Tb- So sorry you had to go through all that pain! I guess it makes sense that endometreosis could cause that. I hope your appointment goes well and you are able to get some answers.

Dream- I'm curious about the tongue and vein color, what does that tell your ND? Hope your move goes smoothly (as smoothly as moving can go- I hate moving if you couldn't tell)

Steph- glad you are still able to take it easy! Hope you will be back to feeling normal again soon!

Sunny- I seriously love reading your blog! Hope you get a lot of good little eggs for day 5!

Afm- nothing new here, on CD 3!
Have an eventful weekend planned with my little sisters 18th birthday and a good friends 30th birthday! Oh, and we are getting a Christmas tree with our best friends from highschool and their 2 little ones. So looking forward to the weekend after a long day of work today!

 

[tbfromlv]

Ok so went in for baseline u/s today. They said my endometriomas are stable (I think they actually shrunk a little!) so we can continue this cycle. I will be on femera CD 5-9 then estradiol cd 10 and 11 to boost my lining. I will have a follicle study scan done on cd 10. She wanted cd 12 but that’s a Sunday (they are closed) and she worried that I could ovulate and mess it all up lol since we aren’t sure how I will respond to Femara.

I’m excited to have a plan and that this doctor heard me out about potential lining issues, which she agreed could possibly be the problem.
Still in pain today, but I can at least function!

 

[AmberR]

Glad you we're able to get a plan in place, Tb, sounds like a really great doctor! Sorry you are in pain, hope it goes away soon!

 

[steph1607]

On our first wedding anniversary, I thought I would introduce to you our exciting little addition to the family. This is Stanley, our little miracle.

 

[tbfromlv]

Oh Steph he is absolutely beautiful! And you look so happy

(Side note- I’ve never been able to build a snowman that good. Usually mine are only able to live about a foot off the ground!)

How much snow did you guys get? It’s definitely been cold enough for snow here, but it’s just been sunny. Yesterday was 10 F so what is that -12 C? Brr

Oh and PS- today is our dating anniversary lol

 

[steph1607]

Haha thanks TB, he's watching over us as we speak as I built him just outside the living room window!

We never get proper snow in the UK so I can't say I've ever had too much practice. But I was determined with this one, feet and hands went numb so quickly that I thought I might as well just power through.

We probably had about 5 inches over night and then it kept snowing. Has stopped now, but tomorrow morning will be hell. Thankfully I'm still signed off and hubby is on annual leave. England grinds to a halt in the snow so school has already been cancelled!

 

[steph1607]

And OMG that is so cold!!!! We've had highs of about 2-3c today. Drop to about -3 overnight. I couldn't survive in -12!!

 

[tbfromlv]

Haha well then I am even more impressed with your skills! School cancelling is the only reason I don’t like snow days-they tack the make up days on at the end of the school year when I’m ready to be done! I also hate driving in it. It’s scary and I’m from the desert so I will be the first to admit that I’m not great at it! Glad you guys don’t have to go anywhere.

Yeah where I am it is right smack in the middle of the US so we get crazy weather, a few days ago was 22 C here lol so winter is always up and down. The national weather service “awarded” our area “most changing” because even if forecast calls for rain, it could shift so easily and be sunny. We joke that our meteorologist get paid to make guesses because they are only right about 50% of the time. I’m not in the know on weather but it’s something about the jet streams meet here so I slight shift changes everything. Makes things interesting lol