Hi everyone :wave: ... I'm new to the site and needed a place to go and release what I've been feeling. I have been TTC for over 5 years now. Its ben a really rocky road for me . The last year my fiancée and I have been trying. I moved to a new city for work and wanted a fresh start. I feel like I will never have kids. Its hard being optimistic when there are so many people having kids who I honestly feel do not deserve to have any (I know I'm not the only one who feels this way). And here I am... Childless. A few years ago I spoke to my doctor and he gave me clomid to try. All that did was create a big mess within my system and I ended up with a giant cyst I have to have surgically removed. I have had cyst since I was 19 but was never told I had PCOS or anything. They couldn't figure out why I was constantly getting them.
Anhwho... fast forward to today. My last AF was July 3rd. I have a 24 day cycle. Always been 24 days... Never fails. My doctor prescribed me Femara to take day 3-7 which makes today my day 7. On day 10 I am supposed to shot myself with Baville (I don't remember if that is the name of the shot to help ovulation) and on July 15th I am supposed to administer the HCG shot. This is my first time using any of these medication. I have read tons of forms the last couple days trying to see what has happened to others and I'm still at a 50/50. All I want is a ... SOMETHING! Im at a lost...Im confused and Im worried this will never be in my future.
I know my man's works because he has 2 previous kids. It's all me. So as I try this new medication I will sit and wait. Oh and as far as test go.. My tubes are open, I do ovulate and I have been pregnant once before in 2001 but I had it terminated due to a bad relationship and I regret ever doing that.
Im 32... not getting any younger LOL!! And for all of you out there TTC... I feel your pain. and I hope something happens for ALL of us. This desire is not just a want Its also a need. And I don't think people understand that.
Thanks for letting me vent a bit.
Anhwho... fast forward to today. My last AF was July 3rd. I have a 24 day cycle. Always been 24 days... Never fails. My doctor prescribed me Femara to take day 3-7 which makes today my day 7. On day 10 I am supposed to shot myself with Baville (I don't remember if that is the name of the shot to help ovulation) and on July 15th I am supposed to administer the HCG shot. This is my first time using any of these medication. I have read tons of forms the last couple days trying to see what has happened to others and I'm still at a 50/50. All I want is a ... SOMETHING! Im at a lost...Im confused and Im worried this will never be in my future.
I know my man's works because he has 2 previous kids. It's all me. So as I try this new medication I will sit and wait. Oh and as far as test go.. My tubes are open, I do ovulate and I have been pregnant once before in 2001 but I had it terminated due to a bad relationship and I regret ever doing that.
Im 32... not getting any younger LOL!! And for all of you out there TTC... I feel your pain. and I hope something happens for ALL of us. This desire is not just a want Its also a need. And I don't think people understand that.
Thanks for letting me vent a bit.