Newbie posting here...though probably could have benefited from posting a while ago!
I feel lucky to be the wonderful mother to my almost 3 year old DD (3 in June), but have been ready and actively trying for #2 since early last year. Charting temps, OPKs, no luck. LOTS of "do you want another?" and "when are you going to have another?" questions from family and friends. And of course lots of pregnancy bump and baby pics floating around Facebook. (Of course, they all got pregnant without trying, right?!)
Only (although it didn't feel like "only" at the time) took 6 months TTC with my first. Kept feeling frustrated and upset this time around. Why should it be so different? Actually wondered many times if perhaps I just couldn't get pregnant.
Finally got my BFP on 3/25/15. Was beyond thrilled! Started having some brown spotting early this past week (wasn't too worried), but then it turned pink briefly and changed consistency on 4/2. Doctor had me come in for blood work. Levels low at 209 so was scheduled to go back in this Monday for recheck. However, continued spotting and cramping; became pretty positive MC was coming. This morning the bleeding finally started. So I guess I officially miscarried at 5w5d.
Definitely feeling the need to look for some support. Again, I feel so lucky to have a happy, healthy kiddo already, a great husband, job, life, etc. I actually also feel a bit relieved knowing at least I can get pregnant. And I am a medically practical person knowing a MC happens for a reason. I certainly would rather have another healthy, viable baby.
But, I am also feeling sad. And frustrated. And disappointed. And confused. And a little down on hope right now.
Not sure if this moment in time was the best time to write this post as everything feels a little surreal and raw. Just thought that perhaps some of you could also relate and offer some support. Or that this process of writing this post might be cathartic in some way.
Thanks!
I feel lucky to be the wonderful mother to my almost 3 year old DD (3 in June), but have been ready and actively trying for #2 since early last year. Charting temps, OPKs, no luck. LOTS of "do you want another?" and "when are you going to have another?" questions from family and friends. And of course lots of pregnancy bump and baby pics floating around Facebook. (Of course, they all got pregnant without trying, right?!)
Only (although it didn't feel like "only" at the time) took 6 months TTC with my first. Kept feeling frustrated and upset this time around. Why should it be so different? Actually wondered many times if perhaps I just couldn't get pregnant.
Finally got my BFP on 3/25/15. Was beyond thrilled! Started having some brown spotting early this past week (wasn't too worried), but then it turned pink briefly and changed consistency on 4/2. Doctor had me come in for blood work. Levels low at 209 so was scheduled to go back in this Monday for recheck. However, continued spotting and cramping; became pretty positive MC was coming. This morning the bleeding finally started. So I guess I officially miscarried at 5w5d.
Definitely feeling the need to look for some support. Again, I feel so lucky to have a happy, healthy kiddo already, a great husband, job, life, etc. I actually also feel a bit relieved knowing at least I can get pregnant. And I am a medically practical person knowing a MC happens for a reason. I certainly would rather have another healthy, viable baby.
But, I am also feeling sad. And frustrated. And disappointed. And confused. And a little down on hope right now.
Not sure if this moment in time was the best time to write this post as everything feels a little surreal and raw. Just thought that perhaps some of you could also relate and offer some support. Or that this process of writing this post might be cathartic in some way.
Thanks!
