TTC and Beyond!

[clynn11]

TOTALLY understandable BB I will be stalking your journal, as always. Sending you so much love and positive, healing vibes

 

[RobertRedford]

Oh BB, huge hugs. We're always here if you need us. I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now

 

[Cowgirl07]

I understand Bb.

 

[goldstns]

Well miss u bb. I'll b thinking positive wishes for u. I understand.

 

[frsttimemama]

Totally understand that BB! Thinking of you and hoping for you to get some answers!

 

[Cowgirl07]

Amanda waves did you guys get home okay? How did Leah like the car ride?

 

[RobertRedford]

I just went to spin for the first time since knowing I am pregnant and felt okay. Exercise made the ms go away, thank god!

Kara, how'd the baby shower go?

Waves, are you home? How exciting!!!

I'm having one of those days where I'm extremely overly critical of myself and feeling stupid. Like a total foot in mouth day. Anyone else ever get this?

 

[Cowgirl07]

Rr all the time. I have been super critical of myself lately.

 

[RobertRedford]

Katrina, sorry it happens to you too! Such a bummer I hope this feeling goes away too. I'm too moody for this!

 

[frsttimemama]

I am mostly critical of myself physically lately. My hair won't do anything, my skin is all broken out, and my clothes are not fitting well right now. My jeans are too tight, I feel dumb in maternity jeans, my scrubs arent fitting well, and my T-shirts are too short.. and I really am not "showing" yet, but things are obviously rearranging! I'm SO thankful to be pregnant, but this in-between stage is hard!

Rr, glad spinning helped! Sounds like your weekend was awesome work

 

[Cowgirl07]

I'm critical of my body more then anything. Mostly because I am not pregnant I guess. I breakout too

 

[goldstns]

Ugh...threw my back out. Which isn't easy with an infant. Thankfully dh and m mom were very helpful today. Thank god I never had back problems during pregnancy...dh and I were certain that would be my major problem, cuz I have a really messed up back.

 

[Cowgirl07]

Oh no Nikki I hope it gets better

 

[goldstns]

Oh and Alia is working really hard on rolling over!

 

[Cowgirl07]

Awe I think we need some more pictures

 

[frsttimemama]

I hope it gets better soon! It doesn't seem like she could be rolling yet! Gosh! I agree with Katrina though .. more pictures soon!

 

[wavescrash]

Amanda waves did you guys get home okay? How did Leah like the car ride?

Waves, are you home? How exciting!!!

Thanks for checking in with us


We're home. It's been a long and exhausting day but we survived. Took forever to get discharged from the hospital because my OB and the pediatrician weren't here first thing in the morning like usual. My OB finally came around to discharge me and then I got my flu vaccine & TDAP vaccine. Then waited forever for Leah to get discharged.

The pediatrician said that they don't like to see babies lose more than 10% of their birth weight upon discharge and since Leah didn't weigh much to begin with, it was easy for her to lose too much. She's JUST at that 10% loss so they have me supplementing with .05 oz of formula after each feeding session until my milk comes in & she is seen by the pediatrician in the office. I have to call tomorrow morning and have her seen again on Tuesday or Wednesday for a weight check and whatnot. I'm pretty upset that she's lost so much for her size but I've been feeding her as best I can and that's all I can do. My nurse commented to the ped that Leah is the best nursing baby on the whole floor which made me happy because I feel like I've been struggling with it. She's eating every 2-3 hours, 15 min per side but sometimes she falls asleep and no matter what I do, I can't get her to wake up or relatch so she wants to eat again in an hour. My nipples felt okay yesterday but they're killing me again today. We were sent home with Gerber Good Start Gentle formula to supplement.

After discharge, we stopped at Target to get more nursing bras, my pain med prescriptions, & more baby stuff. Then we went to my mom's house so we could see Hannah & Autumn and they could visit Leah a little more. Hannah really has no interest in her as of yet and was a bit upset when we left her there My mom's probably watching her for a whole week since I can't lift her for 2 weeks. I feel guilty about it but OH's work scheduled is 10am-7pm this week so he won't be home at all to help otherwise my mom could just watch her during the day instead of all overnights. I hope she's gonna be okay though.

I fed Leah there and then we came home to find our power was out due to some line being broken. Took a couple hours for them to fix it but it's back on now. Leah just so happened to be hungry when we got home and didn't want to stay awake or latch well or anything but we tried feeding 15min/side. It hurt so bad and due to everything and my hormones, I broke down and cried like a baby over everything. OH was great at wiping my tears, feeding me snacks and trying to calm me down. I was debating on giving up breastfeeding because it can be so hard and we've had a rough day with it, plus with having to supplement, I feel like she's not benefiting from me at all. My milk's started to come in but nothing like it did in previous pregnancies so I'm worried I'll have a supply issue. Well naturally an hour later Leah wanted to nurse again because she barely ate before but it didn't hurt as bad and she stayed awake nearly the entire time so then I felt guilty for wanting to quit. OH gave her the .05oz of formula and now she's sleeping in her rock & play sleeper.

I'm attempting to upload pictures from my camera and waiting for her next feed before trying to get some sleep. I'm feeling pretty sore today (incision-wise) and my vagina is super swollen right now but it wasn't when we left the hospital so I'm hoping it's okay. I've had a lot of burning pain but they said that's normal as it heals. It still hurts though. Tomorrow OH is working at 9am instead of 10 so it'll just be Leah & me all day long by ourselves until nearly 7:30pm when he gets home. Fingers crossed I survive and manage to nap when she naps. I'm so incredibly tired.

 

[Cowgirl07]

I hope nursing gets better. I'm glad you the electricity is fixed, I'm sure Hannah will figure it out.

 

[goldstns]

Waves- the first few weeks of nursing suck, but I promise it gets better ..stick w it!

 

[frsttimemama]

What a rough and exhausting day! Hopefully tonight you get some rest and tomorrow goes smoothly. Hannah will be okay. I'm sure that's hard on you, too. Breast feeding sounds awful! My gosh.. I REALLY don't know about that.. glad you guys are home!

Rachel, how was Ellie's day??