TTC at 44 after I lost my 17 month old son

[Lukes Mom]

Hi. I guess I'm just looking for some support. We recently lost our 17 month old son Luke to cancer. We conceived him through IVF on the first attempt when I was 42 after 2 years of trying on our own. I'm now 44 and emotionally distraught since losing my son. He was the light of our lives. The IVF process is incredibly stressful as many of you know well on a good day. Going through it through grief is extremely difficult. We went through one round of stems and they retrieved 12 eggs, 9 mature and 5 fertilized. 2 embryos made it to blastocyst but unfortunately we did PGS testing and they were both chromosomally abnormal. This cycle we added Lupron and Human Growth Hormone and we had great results. I had 26 eggs retrieved, 20 mature and 16 fertilize. Tomorrow is day 5 so we will see how many make it to blastocyst for biopsy for Another round of PGS testing. We are opting to do PGS testing because we want to have the best possible chance of a lasting pregnancy and ultimately a healthy baby. I don't think we could handle another loss. Our Dr's seemed very encouraged that I'm still producing a good number of eggs but I fear that with my age the risk of chromosomally abnormal embryos is so high. I guess I'm just asking for a good thought for us. No other child will ever replace Luke, but I know that another child could bring some joy back into our broken hearts.

 

[Yo_Yo]

Hi,

I'm so sorry for the loss of your boy

Welcome to bnb-I'm sure you'll find lots of support here, and I wish you well in your ttc journey

 

[Bekah78]

So sorry for your loss.

Best of luck with your IVF round. Really do hope it goes ok and you get your BFP.

 

[Lukes Mom]

Thank you very much. I really appreciate you wishing us a positive result.

 

[Bevziibubble]

Welcome to BnB. I'm so sorry for the loss of your little boy



Good luck with the IVF

 

[Sis4Us]

So Sorry for u loss wishing u all the best!!

 

[tinkerbelle93]

So sorry for your loss

There's a TTC over 35 section which seems very active and a lot of people sharing IVF journeys on there which is worth popping over to x

 

[Lukes Mom]

Thank you so much for your comments and for recommending another forum. I appreciate that very much.

 

[xJG30]

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