Tinytina85
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I'm not really sure where to put this but really could do with some support!
I have a son who is 5 and a half., I am just about to turn 29 as is my partner. I've always hated clockwork 28 day cycles with the odd cycle blip once or twice. My partner and I have Been ttc for over 9/10 months properly, my cycles have become erratic, I never know when to expect my af. We've been off BC for 2 years but actively ttc for 9/10 months. I'm so devastated with the bfn's, the false +opk's the untrustworthy Ovulation signs. I don't even trust my bbt anymore!! I literally feel so down! My OH just thinks I'm silly and my doc refused to help as I'm already a parent (go figure!!) my son isn't my partners and I'm getting to an age where I am so ready for a child, my body aches. Everyone is pregnant or just had babies, family, friends, everywhere I look... Babies, bumps and pregnancy announcements. I literally feel at breaking point. I can't seem to find anyone to confide in. My friends think because I've had a child I will just have other, my best friend even rubbed my nose in the fact she got pregnant again her 1st trying after 5 years on the pill after her 1st! I feel alone, I'm seriously loathing myself and my messed up womanhood my son keeps asking for a brother or sister too, telling me he's lonely!
I've kind of written an essay... I know...
I have a son who is 5 and a half., I am just about to turn 29 as is my partner. I've always hated clockwork 28 day cycles with the odd cycle blip once or twice. My partner and I have Been ttc for over 9/10 months properly, my cycles have become erratic, I never know when to expect my af. We've been off BC for 2 years but actively ttc for 9/10 months. I'm so devastated with the bfn's, the false +opk's the untrustworthy Ovulation signs. I don't even trust my bbt anymore!! I literally feel so down! My OH just thinks I'm silly and my doc refused to help as I'm already a parent (go figure!!) my son isn't my partners and I'm getting to an age where I am so ready for a child, my body aches. Everyone is pregnant or just had babies, family, friends, everywhere I look... Babies, bumps and pregnancy announcements. I literally feel at breaking point. I can't seem to find anyone to confide in. My friends think because I've had a child I will just have other, my best friend even rubbed my nose in the fact she got pregnant again her 1st trying after 5 years on the pill after her 1st! I feel alone, I'm seriously loathing myself and my messed up womanhood my son keeps asking for a brother or sister too, telling me he's lonely!
I've kind of written an essay... I know...