I 26 and so is DH. We have a son that is 15 months old and was conceived first month trying. Never knew how lucky I was. We have been trying for 6 months now for a second baby. I went to the doc and they told me I have low ovarian reserve meaning I don't have a whole lot of eggs left for someone my age. I've read lots of places that egg supply shouldn't effect the ability to conceive and some things say it does. First doc I saw said that as long as I respond to fertility drugs then it shouldn't be a problem. Anyways I have done 2 IUIs with clomid+injectables and they have failed. I respond great every time with 3-4 mature follicles. However, I feel that the timing was done wrong on the last IUI. I am so angry and frustrated and I have no one to talk to about it. My husband is sick of hearing me complain and says that it will happen when it happens. I can't really talk to any of my close friends because a lot of them are not even married yet or have kids so they don't understand and I don't really want them to know I am ttcing either because I don't want to be asked about it month to month. I never thought it would be this hard to conceive again and although I know 6 months isn't maybe that long it feels like a century to me especially taking fertility drugs. I am sick of the side effects and the way they make me feel. The cost of doing these treatments is really putting a strain on us. We never have money to do anything anymore. I just don't know how much more of it I can take but at the same time I know that not trying wont make me happy either. Every time I've had a good cry session about it and I've felt like ...ok I am good now...someone else of Facebook or someone else in my playgroup announces they are pregnant. I feel so awful for even feeling this way. I should be happy for these people but instead I am bitter and just all around depressed. Of course I saw congratulations to them and put on a happy face but I am falling a part inside. I keep being asked by women in my son's playgroup when I am going to have "another one" and I just keep saying "oh we're working on it". I really just want to say.."I don't want to talk about it!". It has gotten so bad that it has gotten to the point where I don't want to attend play group things anymore because either A.someone is announcing they are pregnant or B. Someone is asking me about getting pregnant. My husband says that I need to "try and forget about it" or "take my mind off of it" and I AM trying to do that. Ever so desperately I am trying to. Because I know sitting around crying about it and thinking about it all the time is not going to change anything and its taking my attention away from my son. However today, my hairdresser just texted me a picture of a pregnancy test and saying she was pregnant first try. She knows I've been trying and also asked in the text if I was yet. I just said "Not yet". I am suppose to be seeing her next week and If I really didn't need to get my hair done then I was seriously think about canceling. I am just in a really bad place right now. I keep trying to forget about it but its making it really hard when I keep getting these announcements. I don't know what the answer is. Isolate myself from people? Move? Am I just a rude selfish person who needs to suck it up? I guess I am just looking for some encouraging words
