KamIAm
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I know I have recently started a thread earlier this morning... about privacy... Heck, might as well delete it... In fact, after I finish this I will try to.....
I am just frustrated, feeling lost, feeling invaded on, angry & scared... All because I feel as though MY safe haven has been invaded on AGAIN!
A "real life" friend of mine called me and mentioned that she has been roaming through this website , she SAYS she was in the breast feeding section, I'm sure she was but also MORE than sure that's NOT all she's visited.... She says she hasn't gone through and read my posts or anything BUT I am NOT believing that, at all! ....
When I first lost Emma, I decided I would be an open book with this journey and when people would ask me how I was and all that junk, I would be honest and tell them.... Well, that went well for a tiny bit of time... Soon, their "words of wisdom", their shakes of their heads, pitiful looks, the whispers of worry for me..... All that gets old! So, now when people ask how I'm doing, I always reply with a "Great!".... I have NO ONE in my real life to talk to ... I mean, truly talk too ...
The day I stumbled acrossed this forum was the day my life was truly saved, truly... This is the absolute ONLY place I have.... I felt total freedom in saying how I was... What I honestly thought and felt... Never any judgement, just always recieved comfort and support...
BUT now that I know my supposed "real life" friend is snooping around the forum.... I'm done....
I can't even to begin to explain what this has done to me.... Everyday I would log in, most days a couple times... But now I feel as I can't post anything, comment on anything, or heck even have a ticker.... I didn't want people in my regular life knowing we was ttc again, but now she knows!
I don't know....
Just wish she would have left my safe haven alone, Leave me be here.... I feel like if I wanted her to know something, my God, I'd have told her! ... She's so nosy... Why couldn't she just give me this place???
The freedom is gone... I feel as if I can't share anymore....
Sorry for my long, crazy ramblings..... I just feel so lost...ANGRY
I am just frustrated, feeling lost, feeling invaded on, angry & scared... All because I feel as though MY safe haven has been invaded on AGAIN!
A "real life" friend of mine called me and mentioned that she has been roaming through this website , she SAYS she was in the breast feeding section, I'm sure she was but also MORE than sure that's NOT all she's visited.... She says she hasn't gone through and read my posts or anything BUT I am NOT believing that, at all! ....
When I first lost Emma, I decided I would be an open book with this journey and when people would ask me how I was and all that junk, I would be honest and tell them.... Well, that went well for a tiny bit of time... Soon, their "words of wisdom", their shakes of their heads, pitiful looks, the whispers of worry for me..... All that gets old! So, now when people ask how I'm doing, I always reply with a "Great!".... I have NO ONE in my real life to talk to ... I mean, truly talk too ...
The day I stumbled acrossed this forum was the day my life was truly saved, truly... This is the absolute ONLY place I have.... I felt total freedom in saying how I was... What I honestly thought and felt... Never any judgement, just always recieved comfort and support...
BUT now that I know my supposed "real life" friend is snooping around the forum.... I'm done....
I can't even to begin to explain what this has done to me.... Everyday I would log in, most days a couple times... But now I feel as I can't post anything, comment on anything, or heck even have a ticker.... I didn't want people in my regular life knowing we was ttc again, but now she knows!
I don't know....
Just wish she would have left my safe haven alone, Leave me be here.... I feel like if I wanted her to know something, my God, I'd have told her! ... She's so nosy... Why couldn't she just give me this place???
The freedom is gone... I feel as if I can't share anymore....
Sorry for my long, crazy ramblings..... I just feel so lost...ANGRY