Hi everyone! I'm a new member to this site but I need your support because no one else understands what I'm going through because of the circumstances of my miscarriage. I had hcg beta testing done as a check up at 8 weeks. My family doctor called me a few hours later to tell me that my levels had gone to 0 and that I had a miscarriage. I was absolutely devastated!! My heart felt like it had been shattered! But it gets worse...2 weeks went by and my body had no expelled the remains. I didn't suffer any cramps or bleeding at all within this 2 weeks. I went to my family dr and she told me that it can take weeks to happen but I told her that I still felt pregnant and she said that was denial. I was angry so I went to my gyno and told her what was going on and asked if she could test again or do an exam but she said that the levels dropped to 0 so my body might have reabsorbed it. Another week and 5 days later I started bleeding uncontrollably and was in crippling pain. I stayed home for a day trying to deal with it, but it got out of control. I went to the hospital and had bloodwork done upon arrival. Then I waited for 3 hours in agonizing pain before a dr came in. 3 drs entered the room and apologized for the wait but they didn't know how to tell me what was going on or how to deal with it! They told me that my bloodwork indicated that I was just shy of 12 weeks pregnant and that my previous bloodwork was a lab error. I was pregnant that entire time they then told me that I was having a threatened miscarriage. So then I just had to lay there until it happened. I was in such shock after this experience (July 2013) that it is now sinking in and I'm so sad I feel like I lost my baby twice! I tried to tell them that I still felt preg but they didn't listen! I feel so guilty because after they told me I mc the first time I was debased and stressed to the max so I feel like I did this because it was a healthy preg all along until I stopped caring for myself and stressed. I just really needed to share this and I hope to hear from some of you I've wanted a baby since I can remember-a born mother and I was elated with this pregnancy and just as happy as I was I am now that sad! We have been trying again (2 cycles) and with each period I fall deeper into sadness! Thanks for listening! Xx