Thank you to everyone who replied to my thread the other day about our baby going to be coming very early.
We have been back at the hospital today and I don't really know how I am feeling or what I am thinking. It was good in that the scan was looking better - more fluid round the baby today, and the baby was jumping and kicking like nothing on earth. However, there was more protein in my urine today - it had jumped from 0.3 to 1.3. The blood tests were better than the other day, but my blood pressure was a little bit up again and that's on the tablets.
We had a better paediatrician come to talk to us and he told us a lot of helpful info but he did say that at 26 weeks there is a chance the baby will not survive. I always knew that but just hearing someone say it was too much and I could not stop crying...I've just been a wreck on and off since then.
DH said the paediatrician didn't know any of the background to our story at the time - he was talking as if I was just 26 weeks rather than a couple of days of 27 weeks, didn't know I'd had the steroids, didn't know that our baby seems to be very strong in all other ways with a really strong heartbeat and lots of movement and that he would just be giving us the statistics of any 26 week baby rather than our particular baby. I know he had to say to us about the survival thing but it was just too hard hearing it.
The consultant came back and talked to us again and said they are probably looking at delivery within the next 10 days. I know that each day that passes will make a difference but I am still scared at having a baby so early.
I am also terrified at the thought of the caesarian, and now we have to transfer from the Borders General up to the Royal in Edinburgh. Apart from all the worry about the baby, I am absolutely petrified of hospitals. I had two miserable nights in BGH last week and had just kind of begun to get used to that hospital, it's not too big and fairly manageable - but now we have been told this afternoon that I am being seen at the Royal tomororw and my consultant has a hunch they may want to keep me in. I know this is probably not a big deal to a lot of people but to me, the thought is terrifying! Just the thought of going to a bigger hospital that I don't know, being kept in a ward with other people (I'm really shy and private) and on top of all this, the huge worry of when is the baby going to arrive, fear of the c-section and is the baby going to be ok.
I feel like I am cracking up today...just feels like more and more is being piled onto me and I don't know where I am going to get the strength to cope. I have hardly stopped crying all afternoon.
I just feel like there is no hope for our baby and I know that's stupid, I know there are so many great stories out there but I just can't seem to get myself out of this black hole. It probably doesn't help that even just at the beginning of last week, I didn't know any of this was about to happen, it's all just been so fast and I really feel like I can't hold it together any more.
We have been back at the hospital today and I don't really know how I am feeling or what I am thinking. It was good in that the scan was looking better - more fluid round the baby today, and the baby was jumping and kicking like nothing on earth. However, there was more protein in my urine today - it had jumped from 0.3 to 1.3. The blood tests were better than the other day, but my blood pressure was a little bit up again and that's on the tablets.
We had a better paediatrician come to talk to us and he told us a lot of helpful info but he did say that at 26 weeks there is a chance the baby will not survive. I always knew that but just hearing someone say it was too much and I could not stop crying...I've just been a wreck on and off since then.
DH said the paediatrician didn't know any of the background to our story at the time - he was talking as if I was just 26 weeks rather than a couple of days of 27 weeks, didn't know I'd had the steroids, didn't know that our baby seems to be very strong in all other ways with a really strong heartbeat and lots of movement and that he would just be giving us the statistics of any 26 week baby rather than our particular baby. I know he had to say to us about the survival thing but it was just too hard hearing it.
The consultant came back and talked to us again and said they are probably looking at delivery within the next 10 days. I know that each day that passes will make a difference but I am still scared at having a baby so early.
I am also terrified at the thought of the caesarian, and now we have to transfer from the Borders General up to the Royal in Edinburgh. Apart from all the worry about the baby, I am absolutely petrified of hospitals. I had two miserable nights in BGH last week and had just kind of begun to get used to that hospital, it's not too big and fairly manageable - but now we have been told this afternoon that I am being seen at the Royal tomororw and my consultant has a hunch they may want to keep me in. I know this is probably not a big deal to a lot of people but to me, the thought is terrifying! Just the thought of going to a bigger hospital that I don't know, being kept in a ward with other people (I'm really shy and private) and on top of all this, the huge worry of when is the baby going to arrive, fear of the c-section and is the baby going to be ok.
I feel like I am cracking up today...just feels like more and more is being piled onto me and I don't know where I am going to get the strength to cope. I have hardly stopped crying all afternoon.
I just feel like there is no hope for our baby and I know that's stupid, I know there are so many great stories out there but I just can't seem to get myself out of this black hole. It probably doesn't help that even just at the beginning of last week, I didn't know any of this was about to happen, it's all just been so fast and I really feel like I can't hold it together any more.
When my water levels was low 2.7 i was told to drink 1ltr water every other hour during the day and it does help the levels but dont drink just before a scan as it can make levels look better then they are for example my scan showed 4.5 on the wenesday but showed 7 on the friday AFTER drinking loads to make baby move as she was being lazy and on the day of induction the monday so only 3 days later i didnt drink before the scan and my levels was 1.5
