This isn't a "Do you think I'm pregnant?"/symptoms thread. I know the only way to know is to test! I do have a host of pregnancy/PMS/post-ovulation symptoms that are trying to slap me in the face at the moment. I'm really trying (without much success, of course) to ignore them, because after 18 months actively and very unsuccessfully TTC, I don't trust my instincts at all anymore.
On my current unmedicated cycle, being on CD43 with no period shouldn't be surprising to me at all. For quite a while now, though, I've had this "something is very different this time" feeling, even though because of high LH with PCOS and nearly non-existent cycles on my own, I don't use OPKs or chart. I think I'm in need of a minor vent: I want that feeling to go away. I'm starting to resent my body for playing these tricks on me. I'm 100% certain that I'm not imagining the actual symptoms--other people have commented on them--I just know they're most likely random, abnormal hormonal fluctuations. And that's what annoys me the most. If I had nothing at all, or knew it was all in my head, I think I could cope better. I think it's easy for many people to say, "Test, and it'll give you an answer," but I'm not sure that I can detach myself anymore from seeing the negatives quite as easily as others can :-/. I tested Christmas Eve and got yet another BFN, and that was devastating. I'm just hoping I can get to my appointment with my new doctor next week and that being closely monitored again will give me some peace of mind.
On my current unmedicated cycle, being on CD43 with no period shouldn't be surprising to me at all. For quite a while now, though, I've had this "something is very different this time" feeling, even though because of high LH with PCOS and nearly non-existent cycles on my own, I don't use OPKs or chart. I think I'm in need of a minor vent: I want that feeling to go away. I'm starting to resent my body for playing these tricks on me. I'm 100% certain that I'm not imagining the actual symptoms--other people have commented on them--I just know they're most likely random, abnormal hormonal fluctuations. And that's what annoys me the most. If I had nothing at all, or knew it was all in my head, I think I could cope better. I think it's easy for many people to say, "Test, and it'll give you an answer," but I'm not sure that I can detach myself anymore from seeing the negatives quite as easily as others can :-/. I tested Christmas Eve and got yet another BFN, and that was devastating. I'm just hoping I can get to my appointment with my new doctor next week and that being closely monitored again will give me some peace of mind.
to you!!
. I think people who get pregnant easily have a hard time understanding the ups and downs of TTC for so long, and all those BFNs are such a roller coaster of emotions.
