Okay, I need to vent. I've been holding this in for wayyyyy too long, so bear with me!
I can't stand (and I would say "hate", but it's just such a strong word...) my SIL. Ugh, I just want to punch her.
Let me start this out by saying that all of my SILs (and I have 6 of them), are all around my age, have had healthy pregnancies, and healthy babies... They have no idea what I have been through losing my baby. BUT there is one in particular that I "can't stand".... She is the type of person that has to one-up everybody. If you get a new purse, she has to go out and get a designer purse. When she found out that another one of my SIL and BILs were getting married in March, she had to plan her wedding for January, so she could get married first. When she found out my DH and I were buying a house last year, she had to convince her husband to go out and buy her an even more expensive house, and just walk away from their current condo!!! And when she found out about my m/c (we hadn't told them we were TTC), she immediately decides it is time to start TTC her second child. I didn't want her to know we were trying for that VERY reason... Because she will find some way to get pregnant first. And then God forbid we are pregnant at the same time... She will constantly compare herself to me and say shitty things to put me below her... I can just imagine it now... "oh, I've only gained 20lbs. with pregnancy. You have gained 50?! Oh wow... I can still fit in my "Joe's Jeans"." "Oh, we already bought the new baby that." "Oh, we are having a $5,000 baby shower..." UGH. Shoot me now.
So... this brings me to why I'm so upset with her... Last week it was me, my other SIL, and her sitting at the table dying Easter eggs, and she was going on and on and on about her pregnant friend (who conceived the SAME time as me, and we were supposed to be due the SAME week) right in front of me. When I didn't answer her, or acted like I didn't hear what she way saying, she finally stopped. Remember, this is the SAME SIL who never said she was sorry for my loss, or anything like that.
But now... this weekend, guess what, she has made it public that her and her husband are going away and going to TTC#2!!!!!!!!! The very damn same week that my DH and I are trying again for #1 after our loss. And ya know what, she gets everything she wants, so she will def. get pregnant this month because that's what she wants... To be pregnant before me. I swear, I am not normally an angry or aggressive person, but if she announces her pregnancy and I still have not become pregnant again after my m/c, I will SCREAM. I cannot handle that, I'm telling you right now. Because, here's the thing... I would be happy for her if she wasn't trying to be a bitch and rub it in my face. Bitches be bitches.......
So, here I am praying to God to have mercy on us this cycle so that we can conceive again and finally get our first sticky baby.... Not that I needed anymore reasons to wish it would happen this month, but this just makes me wish for it even more.
Okay, venting complete. Thanks for listening.
I can't stand (and I would say "hate", but it's just such a strong word...) my SIL. Ugh, I just want to punch her.
Let me start this out by saying that all of my SILs (and I have 6 of them), are all around my age, have had healthy pregnancies, and healthy babies... They have no idea what I have been through losing my baby. BUT there is one in particular that I "can't stand".... She is the type of person that has to one-up everybody. If you get a new purse, she has to go out and get a designer purse. When she found out that another one of my SIL and BILs were getting married in March, she had to plan her wedding for January, so she could get married first. When she found out my DH and I were buying a house last year, she had to convince her husband to go out and buy her an even more expensive house, and just walk away from their current condo!!! And when she found out about my m/c (we hadn't told them we were TTC), she immediately decides it is time to start TTC her second child. I didn't want her to know we were trying for that VERY reason... Because she will find some way to get pregnant first. And then God forbid we are pregnant at the same time... She will constantly compare herself to me and say shitty things to put me below her... I can just imagine it now... "oh, I've only gained 20lbs. with pregnancy. You have gained 50?! Oh wow... I can still fit in my "Joe's Jeans"." "Oh, we already bought the new baby that." "Oh, we are having a $5,000 baby shower..." UGH. Shoot me now.
So... this brings me to why I'm so upset with her... Last week it was me, my other SIL, and her sitting at the table dying Easter eggs, and she was going on and on and on about her pregnant friend (who conceived the SAME time as me, and we were supposed to be due the SAME week) right in front of me. When I didn't answer her, or acted like I didn't hear what she way saying, she finally stopped. Remember, this is the SAME SIL who never said she was sorry for my loss, or anything like that.
But now... this weekend, guess what, she has made it public that her and her husband are going away and going to TTC#2!!!!!!!!! The very damn same week that my DH and I are trying again for #1 after our loss. And ya know what, she gets everything she wants, so she will def. get pregnant this month because that's what she wants... To be pregnant before me. I swear, I am not normally an angry or aggressive person, but if she announces her pregnancy and I still have not become pregnant again after my m/c, I will SCREAM. I cannot handle that, I'm telling you right now. Because, here's the thing... I would be happy for her if she wasn't trying to be a bitch and rub it in my face. Bitches be bitches.......
So, here I am praying to God to have mercy on us this cycle so that we can conceive again and finally get our first sticky baby.... Not that I needed anymore reasons to wish it would happen this month, but this just makes me wish for it even more.
Okay, venting complete. Thanks for listening.