Waiting for +OPK

[Naaxi]

LOL perhaps our jobs are equally enjoyable in that they are horrifyingly bad LOL. I have only been at my job since July and I am sooo sick of it. I don't believe I will be returning for long after mat leave. I don't even want to go back at all actually, I want to wait until the baby is two before leaving him/her so the crucial bits of rearing are in place. Especially potty training. The daycare my sister is in should have their licence stripped, I am so mad at them.

But we will probably get married locally, and I want to keep the ceremony small. I would love to do a backyard wedding, but it will be in February which means snow and subzero temperatures. I don't particularly want to be my own something blue.

Maybe it's a good thing my cycle has changed to become shorter, my first surge happened on CD17, my second on CD15 and my third on CD13. I am sooo impatient to start 'cause I have a good feeling about all of this. Though it's going to feel so awkward waiting for the donation lmao. With my medicine syringe and disposable shot glass. Hahaha. Oh dear.

And I KNOW what you mean with the OPKs and peeing! Especially last month when I got an iffy positive the first time around and had to wait to test again. After half an hour I was DYING. Derek was making fun of me lol.

 

[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

LOL yes, and I am just about there again myself. Stupid ovulation, it seems my whole being has become focussed on catching it. I sometimes wonder if I just get really drunk and go to parties every weekend if it'll help... Seemed to help a lot of the girls I went to high school with, lol! Sorry, conducting the bitter train tonight. Woo woooooo!

I would love to stay home for the first two years, but it may not be fiscally possible. We will see, but Derek didn't look pleased when I asked. Maybe I could take in a few more kids as a kind of dayhome in order to stay home... Hmmm... But my house isn't nearly big enough

You should plan my wedding! I find it tedious and I am a really bad procrastinator. We have nothing booked. I have a plan for flowers that cuts down on price but ups the time... And I really just want to elope in Vegas or something... But my entire family would die. Bleh. Lol.

 

[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

Yes! We want to do something very similar for favours, but instead of muffins we want LED "fireflies". Derek and I both thought of it at the same time, it was cute. But I adore your labels! Where did you get them from? And as for the photography, I would adore to have a really good photographer there, but because I dabble in it (find my facebook fanpage under Naaxi Photo or www.deviantart.com has a gallery) I am really picky with what I want to see. Nothing erks me more than to see a photographer missing cute moments while they're trying to pose someone else.

But as for the dayhome, I'd love to be able to but my friend has one and she has a huge house, but the kids always seem so cramped to me. I dunno.

So this may be TMI but today I've had weird uterus cramps and yellow CM... Wondering if I should tell my GP, I am due for a physical/pap anyway... Hmm...

 

[hollyw79]

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[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

Yet another reason I need a credit card, LOL! That's a neat idea, though. We might do etching, there are kits at Micheals craft store. Do you have those there?

I would die if I was a wedding photographer. I have done 3 and I hate it. WAY too much pressure. But I have yet to get paid for pretty much anything I've done. I am going to school for it soon... As soon as I don't think I'll f**k it up by not studying etc. Lol! I also want to go to school for makeup so I can make up my models how I want them. I usually do my own makeup for shoots, if you've looked at my galleries at all. I'd love being a fashion photographer

I want to start OPKs!! LOL 2 more days... Must... Be... Patient! I have 2 non digis left and 7 digis I wanna see that smiley face! But if I ov before you, I'd feel bad... So go ahead an ov already! But omgosh it's almost Wednesday and my first donation is on Saturday :O Omgosh. *Panic*

 

[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

Weird, I am off of work today too. But Derek forgot and slept in cause I didn't get up. I have a friend who's learning how to do nails and needs to practise, so I am bussing across town today to see her.

LOL! I bet you are at least a little artistic... You have to be in order to take pictures as well. But nursing will be amazing, you'll get to help save lives or improve them, depending on what department you nurse.

I start my OPKs tomorrow morning I'm doing them in the mornings now cause I don't have to wait until the next morning to go get inseminated, I can (and will) go the day I get my +. And the day after. The donor asked if I wanted to come every day from the 8th to the 14th LOL It was hard to say no Maybe if this month doesn't work... But it will!! + vibes for both of us!

My lines totally get darker each day I keep them all for comparaison(?) until I know I've got a + Good luck, sweetie! And you're going in first thing the next morning? Or?

 

[hollyw79]

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[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

Omgosh! Good luck, hunny!! I'm praying for you fingers crossed. How did the appointment go? That's so exciting!!

I started my OPKs today

When I was little I wanted to be an obstetrician... Until I was about 13 and realized that 1. Other people's blood makes me queezy and 2. Some babies don't make it. I wouldn't be able to deal with that.

So I chose something artistic, as I've always had an artsy side. My dad taught me a few things but I've already surpassed him. I would like to learn from my favourite photographer that I speak to, but his 2 day course is 1500 US and he lives in California, so it would cost me money to fly there as well as a room etc... One day...

 

[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

You test at 10dpo?! I heard it's hard to get a + before 12dpo, lol. And even that's too early. Aww, I SO hope you get your BFP and that I follow along shortly lol! I am glad that it went well, though and indulge in some food, gotta relax and be comfy so that bub has a good chance

My favourite photographer is Perry Gallagher, and he studies under Micheal Helms who is also fabulous. They shoot a lot of erotic photoography though, dunno if that's your thing lol.

Speaking of a fulfilling job, I am at work right now trying to figure out origami flowers. That's how bored we are at the moment, lol!

 

[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

I can't deal with BFNs very well, so I TRY to hold out as long as possible. AF is due the 26th if my cycle has regulated and that would make sense if I ov the 12th which is roughly when I predict ov... (I actually predict the 10th). Either way, I am excited Tomorrow is donation number 1

How do you feel today? Any soreness?

I failed at making origami flowers, but I totally blame the paper LOL! I wonder how bad getting fake nails would be during pregnancy.... Hmmm. What to expect mentions acrylics but i get all gel and from an out of home place...

I have only been to the states twice for very short periods before the passport rule and each time I liked the places but not really the people (no offense meant, I adore you!) It's just kinda made me hesitant, y'know? But either way, I will meet him one day, I'm sure of it.

I am on lunchbreak... At least today's a bit more steady than yesterday. I forgot to bring anything to do, lol!

 

[hollyw79]

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[Naaxi]

I don't even know where I got that term from, but I use it all the time It makes me smile as well. That's also how I picture the little guys, helmets and camo, haha! I almost feel my PH is too acidic though, and I know that can affect the troops too.

Heehee, yeah OH would never do marathon "BD". 2 nights in a row and he'll whine LOL. But I know what you mean about feeling emotionally needy. I was like that as well, both times. I might be like that this time, but maybe not 'cause I might stay at my friend's for a while until Derek gets home. Which kinda answers your other question. At least this time, I'll be heading over to his place. He doesn't want to DTD in a cup at our place, and I am worried he won't be able to keep it warm on his way over... So yes, this time it'll be at his place.

I want to get contacts, but I also love my glasses... We'll see. But I get short fake nails LOL. Like palm up you can barely see them peeking out. And my friend is doing a course and needs a model (the latest picture uploaded of me on fbook is one of my hands for her portfolio LOL).

Maybe crankiness has an inverse relation to the amount of beaches in a place; the more beaches and sun, the less cranky the people LOL.

 

[hollyw79]

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