Was I right in delaying my IVF a month or two?

[waiting4u]

As some of you may know, my first IVF was cancelled due to poor follicle response. That hit me so hard, I was not expecting that and to be honest, it has taken me weeks to deal with it emotionally. My follow up appointment and next treatment planning was booked for today but last week I cancelled it. I am just not ready. Obviously, now I am thinking, what did I do that? I have my next appointment end of December. I keep asking myself, what difference does one month make? At the time, I thought, I just can't do it right now, even though having a baby is the one thing we want more than anything.

I am just hoping that some of you LTTTC understand me and can tell me it is OK to take a bit of time out for yourself.......or I am just selfish? Maybe I just need a kick up the bum????

IVF is just so horrible when things are going wrong. The weeks of nasal spray,injections, pills, scans, would all be worth it if it worked I know, but when it doesn't the tears, heartache, anger, pure saddness are too awful for words.

Can I be forgiven for wanting some extra time, even though I am 34 1/2 and every article I read keeps telling me my clock is ticking.....can they hear it or something????

 

[Arcanegirl]

Of course you can be forgiven for wanting a little time out.
IVF does alot to you both physically and mentally and its understandable if your are not ready to try again.

We went through two IUI's one after the other which was alot and we had decided if number two didnt work then we wanted a time out.

 

[HAYS]

ofcourse you can be forgiven, if you felt that you werent ready then thats fine hun.
xxx

 

[JASMAK]

I think it's completely understandable. It's alot of meds, and I am sure it is very emotional. I would probably have done the same thing. You will be in a better mind-frame come December, and probably anxious to get started-which is exactly how you want to be.

 

[Mendy]

You are not being selfish! It's perfectly normal to feel the way you do. The thing I want more in this world right now is a baby as well, but I am currently trying not to stress about it. I had 3 IUI's in a row, none worked and I was just tired of it all. I know IVF is even harder on the body and mind so taking some time for you is perfectly okay. I'm hoping for a Christmas BFP with all my heart, but it just feels so nice to take a break and not have to worry about temping and watching what day i will O....etc. So when you are ready to do your next treatment we will all be here to support you!

 

[maz]

Of course you're not being selfish by thinking about your own sanity and health. It's only a month, but it can make all the difference to your state of mind and your emotional well being. You've had a lot to deal with and come to terms with, so if you need some time to recharge your batteries you take it. The clinic and treatment will still be there when you go back!!

 

[pixielou]

No, I don't think your being selfish at all. Of course it's such an emotional thing to deal with and I just think you are protecting yourself. It's a natural reaction. Also don't worry about the age thing. I'm nearly 36 and I remember people telling me clock was ticking years ago! I was supposed to start IUI about a montha ago and I have put it on hold for a while cos I wanna second opinion.

 

[ahava]

i had ivf , and after i had a miscarriage. I made the mistake to come off my progesterone & drugs too quickly and I ended up for 1 yr recovering, and thinking i was going bonkers (hormones does bad things)......

IVF is soo hard, and really its the anticipation of excitement, worry & hormones all rolled into one.

You are still young in terms of TTC, so give your body a rest that it needs and come back you will be fighting fit both mentally & phisically