Well...I'm back

[mod19]

So after three years we got our bfp last month. Unfortunately this month I miscarried at 6 weeks. Maybe it really isn't supposed to happen? Not sure if I belong here anymore as I was able to get pg, but I still consider this part of the long journey with no lo. Now I just get to sit around and wait for the bleeding to stop and hope AF shows up sooner than later. I dunno. I know that the reason I most likely miscarried was because I had a kidney infection the week after ov and probably caused issues, but I still feel cheated. My sister is also pg. She's about two weeks ahead of where I was and we were already making baptism plans for them at the same time when I come home for Christmas this year. It just sucks.

Sorry for the sob "poor me" story. Its getting better, but I've still been having episodes daily where I just start crying. We wanted this so much.

 

[ProfWife]

I think a lot of people have been where you are. I haven't (no bfp here). What I do know is that what you're feeling, based on the post, is completely normal.

You've suffered a great loss after a very long journey. It's devastating. Allow yourself a chance to grieve. Don't make any major decisions at this time, about continuing to try or anything else. In my advice, treat it like you would any other death. Reach out, like you have, and share when you're comfortable.

I don't know you, but I'd be more than happy to lend a non-judgmental listening ear.

 

[madtowngirl]

Many of us who are here have had a miscarriage. I think you belong here.

I'm so sorry that you miscarried.

 

[mod19]

Thanks ladies. I don't track when I o really, just usually have a general idea and I usually o late. I got over sticks and monitors and temping long ago. So when we found out last month it was a huge surprise as I was sick three of the four weeks of March and think we bd once...maybe twice? I dunno. Wasn't really trying while I was sick as I just assumed it would never happen. I just wish I knew it wouldn't take three years again. I don't think it will, but who knows? I had an hsg done last month also, so maybe that had a factor in it too? All I can do is hope and pray.

 

[Hammy58]

I'm so sorry. I do want to give you a bit of encouragement. After trying for over a year I fell pregnant, unfortunately that was molar pregnancy. The doctor (which was my father in law's practice so I trust them!) told me that after miscarriage you are much more fertile. Well, after the D&C we waited about 4 months (had to make sure my levels dropped from molar) and tried again. Got pregnant that cycle with DS. I seriously thought I was infertile because it took us quite a while to get pregnant in the first place and I was obsessive about temping, the monitor, was on clomid, etc. So it wasn't a year and a half of trying just "going with the flow" so to speak. I was downright scientific about it! Again, I am so sorry your journey has been so long, please don't give up.

 

[mod19]

I'm so sorry. I do want to give you a bit of encouragement. After trying for over a year I fell pregnant, unfortunately that was molar pregnancy. The doctor (which was my father in law's practice so I trust them!) told me that after miscarriage you are much more fertile. Well, after the D&C we waited about 4 months (had to make sure my levels dropped from molar) and tried again. Got pregnant that cycle with DS. I seriously thought I was infertile because it took us quite a while to get pregnant in the first place and I was obsessive about temping, the monitor, was on clomid, etc. So it wasn't a year and a half of trying just "going with the flow" so to speak. I was downright scientific about it! Again, I am so sorry your journey has been so long, please don't give up.

Thanks for the encouragement! I really feel that it will happen again soon, but there's a good chance it won't. Just gotta keep going.

 

[Trishg21]

I am so very sorry for your loss. If you need someone to talk to please let me know.