midori1999
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It is almost 5 weeks since I had my twin girls at 23+5, one died shortly after birth and one died at 9 days old, after fighting in NICU. I miss them dreadfully, and am desperate to get pregnant again.
I had a positive ovulation test last Thursday, whilst still having lochia too, and had hoped I might be able to conceive. Since then I got some heavy, bright red bleeding and my GP sent me to the hospital. They scanned me and thought I had some retained placenta, gave me two doses of Cytotec to empty my uterus, but the bleeding stopped and nothing happened. They scanned me again and decided what they saw on the first scan was probably normal womb lining and I had had a period. They also put me on antibiotics as a precation in case I had an infection (I was swabbed but he results take several days) and the gyneacologist said it was probablyu best to wait a cycle to ttc, to let my body get back to normal.
Maybe I was/am being silly, but I kept hoping maybe I could have conceived. However, the bleeding has started again today and I have mild cramping/discomfort. I just feel like I am never going to get pregnant. My husband is going away for 6-8 weeks at the end of August, so after we have waited a cycle we'll only have a couple of cycles to try before he goes, and then he we will have to stop trying as he is going to Afghanistan towards the end of next year and I don't want to be pregnant/give birth whilst he is away as my complications during my last pregnancy were so serious. (waters broke at 14 weeks, bi-lateral pulmonary embolisms, bleeding, then obviously how it all ended) So we'll have to wait until he gets back from Afghan and by then I'll be 35 and obviously something could happen to him whilst he is away. I couldn't stand having lost my babies and then losing him too and not ever having his child.
He just doesn't understand. He just doesn't seem bothered and although he says he wants a baby, he says 'if it happens, it happens', but it's just not so easy for me.
Sorry this is so long, I am so upset and I don't know who else will understand.
I had a positive ovulation test last Thursday, whilst still having lochia too, and had hoped I might be able to conceive. Since then I got some heavy, bright red bleeding and my GP sent me to the hospital. They scanned me and thought I had some retained placenta, gave me two doses of Cytotec to empty my uterus, but the bleeding stopped and nothing happened. They scanned me again and decided what they saw on the first scan was probably normal womb lining and I had had a period. They also put me on antibiotics as a precation in case I had an infection (I was swabbed but he results take several days) and the gyneacologist said it was probablyu best to wait a cycle to ttc, to let my body get back to normal.
Maybe I was/am being silly, but I kept hoping maybe I could have conceived. However, the bleeding has started again today and I have mild cramping/discomfort. I just feel like I am never going to get pregnant. My husband is going away for 6-8 weeks at the end of August, so after we have waited a cycle we'll only have a couple of cycles to try before he goes, and then he we will have to stop trying as he is going to Afghanistan towards the end of next year and I don't want to be pregnant/give birth whilst he is away as my complications during my last pregnancy were so serious. (waters broke at 14 weeks, bi-lateral pulmonary embolisms, bleeding, then obviously how it all ended) So we'll have to wait until he gets back from Afghan and by then I'll be 35 and obviously something could happen to him whilst he is away. I couldn't stand having lost my babies and then losing him too and not ever having his child.
He just doesn't understand. He just doesn't seem bothered and although he says he wants a baby, he says 'if it happens, it happens', but it's just not so easy for me.
Sorry this is so long, I am so upset and I don't know who else will understand.