I have gained a lot of comfort and insight from reading your posts on this forum.
I have PCOS and have been ttc for 2 years. I was just at the stage of grieving my infertility when I got a very unexpected BFP. My husband and I were over the moon to say the least and we told close family who were also overjoyed.
I was the one saying to everyone "be cautious" and "it's very early (5 weeks)" but I obviously didn't believe that and allowed myself the happy thoughts and planning for our future.
I miscarried at 6wks+2 last week. I am still bleeding. Still cramping and still crying. I feel like I have let everyone, including my baby, down.
I am also feeling ashamed to be so upset when I think everyone else must be thinking "well it was only 6 weeks, some women haven't found out by then and just think it is their period."
I was just wondering if anyone has experienced a feeling of wishing they had never got pregnant in the first place like I am today. No hope feels less sore than to have your hope taken away.
Because of our struggle to conceive EVERYONE is saying "well at least you know you can get pregnant now" to comfort me and I know they don't mean any harm but i feel like screaming sarcastically at them "woopee-doo! I'm so happy I can make a baby then not keep it safe for long enough in my stupid body. that IS wonderful news"
I know I'm ranting and I'm sorry if I have upset anyone but I wish I had never done that test. It just seems like a cruel trick now
xx
I have PCOS and have been ttc for 2 years. I was just at the stage of grieving my infertility when I got a very unexpected BFP. My husband and I were over the moon to say the least and we told close family who were also overjoyed.
I was the one saying to everyone "be cautious" and "it's very early (5 weeks)" but I obviously didn't believe that and allowed myself the happy thoughts and planning for our future.
I miscarried at 6wks+2 last week. I am still bleeding. Still cramping and still crying. I feel like I have let everyone, including my baby, down.
I am also feeling ashamed to be so upset when I think everyone else must be thinking "well it was only 6 weeks, some women haven't found out by then and just think it is their period."
I was just wondering if anyone has experienced a feeling of wishing they had never got pregnant in the first place like I am today. No hope feels less sore than to have your hope taken away.
Because of our struggle to conceive EVERYONE is saying "well at least you know you can get pregnant now" to comfort me and I know they don't mean any harm but i feel like screaming sarcastically at them "woopee-doo! I'm so happy I can make a baby then not keep it safe for long enough in my stupid body. that IS wonderful news"
I know I'm ranting and I'm sorry if I have upset anyone but I wish I had never done that test. It just seems like a cruel trick now
xx