I suffer with depression where my worst hit me in 2006 where I tried to kill myself 3 times in a week. This shock me up and nealry got put into unit which somehow made me sort myself out.
Well now having a really tough time at work my headteacher is being a witch and offereing no support and I am off work have been for two weeks weds and due back. Going to docs tomorrow to check BP back down and get blood results back.
I then get a blunt e mail from my head saying Hi JO, just spoke to Sarah, Wwhy dont you swop roles til end of term. You do PPA and she takes your class.
I feel like i am being pused out from a class I have worked so bloody hard with all year. It will look crap to parents and I worried what they will think, I am worried what my colleagues are saying about me behind my back, 3 people have bothered to make contact with me.
My ehad nagged and nagged when I got signed off for palnning which was already there and in place and now i am being asked to plan new work for 6 classes for the last 4 weeks from sctratch whislt this other girl takes credit form my work.
If my head is tying to hekop which dad and DH reckon then her e mail made me feel like crap.
I can feel myself going under again. I dont wanna do anything, I cant stop crying,I jsut want to sleep I am not interesteed in anythign and I am dissappearing back into my shell.
I don't know what to do. I need to stay till 5 weeks into next erm when I start maternity but at the moment I cnt see how that is going to be possible. I feel I am being punished by work for being off and they want me out.
SOrry I not fel thtis low for so long and I dont want my state of mind affecting bubs.
Thanks for reading if you survived!
Well now having a really tough time at work my headteacher is being a witch and offereing no support and I am off work have been for two weeks weds and due back. Going to docs tomorrow to check BP back down and get blood results back.
I then get a blunt e mail from my head saying Hi JO, just spoke to Sarah, Wwhy dont you swop roles til end of term. You do PPA and she takes your class.
I feel like i am being pused out from a class I have worked so bloody hard with all year. It will look crap to parents and I worried what they will think, I am worried what my colleagues are saying about me behind my back, 3 people have bothered to make contact with me.
My ehad nagged and nagged when I got signed off for palnning which was already there and in place and now i am being asked to plan new work for 6 classes for the last 4 weeks from sctratch whislt this other girl takes credit form my work.
If my head is tying to hekop which dad and DH reckon then her e mail made me feel like crap.
I can feel myself going under again. I dont wanna do anything, I cant stop crying,I jsut want to sleep I am not interesteed in anythign and I am dissappearing back into my shell.
I don't know what to do. I need to stay till 5 weeks into next erm when I start maternity but at the moment I cnt see how that is going to be possible. I feel I am being punished by work for being off and they want me out.
SOrry I not fel thtis low for so long and I dont want my state of mind affecting bubs.
Thanks for reading if you survived!
