I am terrified, too! For several reasons:
- When I was younger I had very irregular periods. I then went on birth control for 6 years to regulate. I did an internship out of state when I was in college, and because I had insurance through school, I could only get my birth control pills from the health center at school, and therefore I was forced to go off of them for 8 months. During that time I didn't have a single period :/ When I saw a new gyno, she put me on an estrogen-based pill that made me horrible moody, so I quit taking it after 3 months. That was 4 years ago and my cycles have been every 28-33 days like clockwork every month, but because I was once irregular I am still terrified that something is wrong.
- I have been using OPKs for 3 cycles and have yet to get a positive. I have read that some women just don't produce a strong enough LH surge to show up on an OPK, but that it is enough to release the egg. I temp and chart and always get a clear temp spike, but those negative OPKs have me very paranoid!
- I freak myself out by reading articles about how women can have regular periods but not ovulate. Even though this is EXTREMELY rare, I'm still petrified that this is happening to me because of the negative OPKs!
- I'll be turning 30 in 6 weeks.
So yeah, you ladies are not alone!!! I guess we will not know until we start trying, and all we can do is prepare as best we can, but I think that tiny fear will always be in the backs of our minds.