I was pregnant last August/September and then had a miscarriage at almost 8 weeks. it was a shock as this was my and my husbands first baby/ pregnancy. i was devastated even though we had not planned this baby it was still wanted and loved so much. i cried for weeks maybe even moths blaming myself and wondering what i had done wrong or what i could have done better to keep this baby safe. I realized it just happens and there was nothing i could of done or changed which was hard as well as just blaming myself. A few months later it was Christmas and new years and i let go of the pain a little and could think about everything without crying.
but now as my due date is coming up tomorrow i am at a loss again, in horrific pain. Wondering how i'm going to get through these next couple of days. I'm not sure how to manage the sadness, expectations, stigma and also not sure what to do to "celebrate" (commemorate) this would have been life.
advice, help, ideas and anything else that you think may help would be greatly appreciated as i am at a loss of what to do, feel , think etc about anything.
but now as my due date is coming up tomorrow i am at a loss again, in horrific pain. Wondering how i'm going to get through these next couple of days. I'm not sure how to manage the sadness, expectations, stigma and also not sure what to do to "celebrate" (commemorate) this would have been life.
advice, help, ideas and anything else that you think may help would be greatly appreciated as i am at a loss of what to do, feel , think etc about anything.